In our losses we bore as we forsook all to follow the Lord, we were discovering that “a man’s life does not consist in the abundance of that which he possesses.” We were also learning about the sovereignty of God, how He is over all and engineers all things according to His will.
We weep at the loss of our holdings,
Our ambitions and savings destroyed,
But to bring us to greater horizons
Has God these events employed.
Do we thank God and live or curse Him and die
As Job’s wife suggested to him?
Do we climb up that mountain receiving more light
Or do we sit in our valley so dim?
Job lost all his possessions;
Even children and health were not spared,
But when brought to loftier places,
He realized how poorly he’d fared.
The circumstances besetting us all
Are not the issue at stake,
But how we respond to the Lord our God,
This will make or break.
Dauphin, MB; 1978-79
My soul, as are the souls of others, as God chooses, is compelled to love, desire and serve God, no matter what. We falter, we fail, we don't always know what God thinks or feels about us but we press on as if there is no choice. It is an irresistible and unconscious force in spite of everything.
As we continued our walk with God by faith, we were disillusioned about our relationships with religious people and family. We discovered the value of true friendship, the cost of walking with God and how few there were willing to pay the price.
I knew a man by whom I met Judas Iscariot. Judas, I learned, was a glory seeker, one who wanted in on the best this world had to offer and who was prepared to betray any association to get what he wanted. Ironically, what he wanted was belonging, acceptance, social security. He lost it all or rather, lost all opportunity of gaining such because he never did have it.