From: D
To: Victor Hafichuk; Paul Cohen; Marilyn Hafichuk; Sara Schmidt
Sent: Sunday, January 12, 2014 9:32 AM
Subject: Currently
Hi,
I would like Marilyn and Sara to be included as I have in the past when talking of mesh complications, with it being so personal.
I deeply apologize for not being in more communication, it has been so much out of my control. I have wondered why, but most of all as always, I just trust the Lord.
I will try to give information to remind you while remaining concise.
I met you shortly after my last surgery in Nov. 2012. When I met with N in May 2013, which was the Lord opening the door with him. I told N I had not fully recovered as I should from that surgery. Somewhere through the year I reached out to you and told you of my oncoming complications and was greatly strengthened by the Lord and you.
In August I finally forced weaning off last Rx. One month later I had gotten in a very critical state and N helped me with getting to the doctor. Helped me as in I become immobile.
So began the reoccurring infections. Etc.
Dec. 28, it started again. By now I know the progression. Jan 9, I was critical again. I’m doing everything I’ve learned to manage this at home. The urogyn surgeon that I use is extremely difficult to even be worked in, but I did get in on the 10th. (As well as his OR schedule has a wait.)
We discussed options for treating my bladder, but when he examined me, he found a cluster of mesh on my bladder. (Since Sept. he would not examine me because of the severity of my condition, so this is the first exam.) Among some other issues that have occurred.
I have suspected it to me mesh, but nerve pain and muscle can feel that way at times. The only medical test that shows the mesh in the body or in female pelvic is a MRN. By now it is more known, but it is like a MRI except it looks or shows the nerves. Lord willingly, I hope to never have one again, like I did a few years back. So, I live with it, until it can be felt or else the have the MRN.
I have the product that breaks apart. And recently found out that I had multiple products implanted. When I’m able, I plan to find out more about that. I happen to have the worse type of mesh as in the most complicated or problematic. One reason some women have more complications than others from it.
Since last Friday the exam has aggregated the mesh and I have worsened. I can’t even put into words the state I’m in physically. I went into shock Friday morning with hearing surgery again. I have prayed over it some. I did not get to talk this over really with Harold before I decided I had better call Monday and work on scheduling surgery, because of wait time and the condition that I am in. Friday evening the nurse called me and I told her that I would call Monday and begin scheduling, she said that she had to schedule ten ahead of me and would call me then. I’m telling you because when I left office I thought later this year I would plan to have it removed. But it cannot wait and I was put on the list.
If I call now or go to ER all they do is drug me up until the OR is available. I have had to go back to Valium (inserted) for relief and holding out as long as possible w/o any other.
I am trusting the Lord’s timing with this as it seems very inconvenient right now for surgery. Money wise. I can hardly get my body around or handle the pain.
I will keep you posted as can or through N, if I am unable.
Victor, I had desired to write you about the Heaven assignment, not that I could add any additional that others said, but of my childhood and Heaven. It was as much a part of my life as this life is. Recently, in scripture here and there I have noticed wording that explains what I could not put into words. Plus, as a child I assumed everyone saw just like as if one saw a tree and you know another sees it, you would not say see the tree. Not saying it compared to a tree, I knew it was Heaven and GRAND. Just an illustration, using the tree. The main thing to me now is that, it wasn’t about loved ones or any other it was all about Him and His Kingdom. Maybe, if you want, Lord willing we can still discuss, later.
Paul, I didn’t answer you email(s), asking about how we are to email. I’m sorry I can’t even remember right now the particular email, except later I will try to get with you on it.
I appreciate you all,
D. Ps 121
From: Paul Cohen and Victor Hafichuk
To: D
Cc: N; Marilyn Hafichuk; Sara Schmidt
Sent: Tuesday, January 14, 2014 10:51 PM
Subject: Re: Currently
Hi D,
We’ve been concerned and wondering about what’s happening with you, especially knowing how you try to make it to the Sabbath meetings and couldn’t attend the last one. Thanks for filling us in – we know it required some effort to do so.
We’re saddened to hear of your condition and troubles. While we know there is a need for these circumstances, we want to see your suffering alleviated as soon as possible. Your suffering isn’t an end in itself, but is there to help bring you to God.
We could feel somewhat helpless not knowing what to say or do at this point. However, we know the Lord isn’t helpless and He hasn’t left us alone. We will give you what we do have, knowing the Lord will supply your needs as you look to Him.
Here’s what we can say:
The Lord is over all, in perfect control. Nothing happens by chance or without purpose. Your present condition is under His watch and knowledge. This truth isn’t new to you, but we all need to remember these things.
We have a mutual witness (the four of us), that you have been religious, too “heavenly-minded,” D. While it would seem to be a good thing to be so occupied in spiritual matters, your preoccupation comes at the cost of dealing with certain practical matters at hand that you wish to avoid and which aren’t recognized as spiritual issues at heart. What we’re given by God to do here on earth is of the greatest significance and importance in our spiritual development and life. It’s the very reason God has us here.
You need to seek the Lord on this. It’s more than a single issue (though there are specific issues requiring concrete steps to take as He leads you). It’s a matter of spiritual and attitudinal disposition. You vitally need an entire change of direction, a wholesale repentance, trashing whatever altars you’ve set up that aren’t pleasing to God. There are spiritual, religious elements in your life that have been wreaking destruction on you. When you turn to the Lord with all your heart, determined to do His will and following through no matter what, deliverance will follow, guaranteed. God is not a liar or torturer.
It’s your privilege and honor to search out this matter, for your welfare and God’s glory:
“The glory of God is to hide a thing; but the honor of kings is to search out a matter” (Proverbs 25:2 MKJV).
The walk of faith consists of the everyday things we face and deal with on earth. God isn’t condemning you here, D, but your religious ways haven’t been right, and He would right you. We speak to encourage you in the right way.
Hebrews 10:35-39 EMTV
(35) Therefore do not cast away your confidence, which has a great recompense.
(36) For you have need of endurance, so that having done the will of God, you may receive the promise:
(37) “For yet a little while, and He Who is coming will come and will not delay.
(38) But the just shall live by faith, and if he withdraws, My Soul has no pleasure in him.”
(39) But we are not of those shrinking back to destruction, but of faith, to the saving of the soul.
We’re including N here, in case he needs to get this letter to you, and as your son and fellow believer, may he help you as God grants for both your sakes.
There’s no need to apologize to us about being out of touch or not responding to certain letters. Don’t bother yourself about anything but what God would have you do, for which He’ll supply the grace. All that matters is that you avail yourself of Him in order to know Him as He is in truth, and not as you’ve imagined.
What the Lord is after is not religiosity, but reality.
Paul and Victor
From: D
To: Paul Cohen
Cc: N; Victor Hafichuk; Marilyn Hafichuk; Sara Schmidt
Sent: Wednesday, January 15, 2014 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: Currently
Hi Paul,
Thank you for all the time that you and the others have given to me. The Lord has taught me so much, it has been given to me to greatly rejoice over the time here.
Please remove both of my emails from the the mailing list. I will send Sara a request as well.
Thanks again,
D
From: D
To: Sara Schmidt
Sent: Wednesday, January, 15, 2014 7:20 AM
Subject: Remove Requested
Hi Sara,
I have been given great joy to interact with you and the others during the time given. However, I must now ask to have both of my emails removed from the list.
Thank you,
D
From: Victor and Paul
To: D
Cc: N; Marilyn Hafichuk; Sara Schmidt
Sent: Wednesday, January 15, 2014 9:47 PM
Subject: Re[3]: Currently
Why are you asking to be removed, D? This is the very kind of reality avoidance we’re talking about, which is destroying you.
“So then did I become your enemy speaking to you the truth?” (Galatians 4:16 MKJV)
Victor and Paul