PART NINE – Signs of New Times (cont.)
Mike Lemon called, wanting to bring an elder of his church with him and meet with me. I asked him what his purpose was. They were all quite disturbed about us and wondering what was our purpose with them. They viewed us as troublemakers, feared division and wished to preempt it. I thought Paul should be present. Marilyn disagreed that it was necessary, but Lois, Paul, and I decided that Paul should return from Great Falls to be with me for the meeting.
I awoke at 3:30 a.m. on September 20th with prophecies for about fifteen of the SDA people in particular, Filipinos in general (many were members), and the congregation as a whole.
Meeting with Mike at the farm, he asked me for my spiritual history, which I gladly offered, with an anointing to do so. I told him of the prophecies, and he promised he wouldn’t prevent others from hearing them. I also told him that if we had meetings, which we planned, he was free to come and speak freely.
The letter, with prophecies:
September 20, 2000
TO: Those attending the Seventh Day Adventist Church of Lethbridge
FROM: Victor Hafichuk, in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ
You are a people, some of which do many works, ministering to the poor, sacrificing what you have, gathering for worship, praying for God to accomplish so many things in relation to those you encounter, preaching to many, organizing yourselves efficiently in many things. You even keep the Lord’s weekly Sabbaths. The problem is that while you do all these things in the Name of the Lord, He is not in your works. Oh, He has had mercy on you in limited measure; He has honored whatever He has been able to honor in each of you in varying degrees on a personal basis, but He hasn’t found your works pleasing in His sight in general, no, not at all.
“And Samuel said, ‘Does the LORD delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices as in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice! To listen is better than the fat of rams! For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idol-worship’” (1 Samuel 15:22-23 MKJV).
Saul, in the Name of the Lord, sacrificed, not reluctantly but willingly, not the poorest or mediocre but the best he took in battle, not unto a pagan deity but unto the Lord God of Israel. Not only was his sacrifice rejected, but that which he had was taken from him, because in heart he didn’t obey the Lord Whom he presumed to serve. So, too, you all offer sacrifices to God, but He isn’t pleased with them. In fact, He hates them just as He hated Saul’s sacrifice. Your sacrifices are those of flesh, not spirit. He can’t honor your religious works; they are abominable to Him.
Cain also brought an offering of his own will to the Lord, not to some other god. It was rejected.
“It wasn’t a blood sacrifice,” you respond, as if knowing why he was rejected. But do you know that your sacrifice isn’t accepted for the very same reason?
“Jesus Christ was our blood sacrifice; we need no more sacrifice,” you reply. But why, then, do you sacrifice? You are sacrificing, but your blood isn’t in it. That is why your sacrificing isn’t accepted. Your sacrifices are bloodless, but true obedience to the Lord, the kind of works He desires, is ever with blood, your own blood, not that of others. You don’t live for the Lord, but for yourselves, and you preserve your own lives in the name of sacrifice, not obeying from the heart. You withhold your hearts from the Lord, yet worship Him with your lips as though you love Him.
You say you keep all the commandments. How is it you have ignored not only the First but the Second Commandment, which says, “You shall not make unto you any graven image, or any likeness of anything this is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth…”? In your organization are found more likenesses of the Lord Jesus Christ than in many.
“But,” you protest, “we don’t bow down to or worship these images, these likenesses.” No? Don’t you presume to worship the One of Whom these images are? Hasn’t He commanded that you should not make any likeness of anything in His Name, in a spiritual worship context? Why toy with the Commandment? Why play with fire? Do you need those pictures, whether they be on the wall or in a book or on a movie screen?
It’s blasphemy to portray the Lord Jesus Christ. The finest pictures of Him devised by man are abomination. And you make a liar of the Lord and lies of His testimony by Isaiah when He says, “He has no form or comeliness; and when we shall see Him, there is no beauty that we should desire Him. He is despised and rejected of men…” (Isaiah 53:3). Rarely does one see a homely likeness of Jesus. Rather, He’s portrayed as a handsome, compassionate, friendly, lovable, and attractive good guy. These are all fleshly notions, things which men savor – yes, satanic.
He came as He, by Isaiah, said He would, and you make a liar of Him, you and your whole organization. Oh yes, you justify yourselves; perhaps Ellen G. White would approve of your pictures and so you think you’re justified. If she does approve, she is not a true prophetess or messenger of God walking with Him (according to her writing, “Mark of the Beast,” she doesn’t approve). Nevertheless, “You are they which justify yourselves before men; but God knows your hearts: for that which is highly esteemed among men is abomination in the sight of God” (Luke 16:15).
You may think you don’t worship the likeness but, in that you make it, you do worship it, and you presume to worship the One Whose likeness it is. In vain you worship Him with your lips.
Have you not known that women, not men, have ruled in marriage, even as men have been given to rule on the earth instead of God? Without exception, women have ruled and have been the heads of their houses. “I decided that I would establish a strong relationship with my husband before I had any children, and so I waited five or six years to do so,” says one, as though in charge, and indeed, she has been. But the Lord has come to change all that now.
Darrell Beaudoin: You’re laboring, not so much to be accepted of the Lord, but to be a star in the religious organizational works of men (Psalm 17:4), recognized and honored of them. This won’t do even if you were to succeed. Your works are works of the flesh, not of the Spirit of God, and they will fail, no matter that you convert many proselytes to Christ who will only hear, in the end, “I never knew you: depart from Me, you that work iniquity.” The Lord desires reality and not religion. Your studiousness and labor are in vain.
I invite you to take the invitation of the Lord Who has said, “Come unto Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take MY yoke [not yours] upon you, and learn of Me: for I am meek and lowly in heart: and you shall find rest unto your souls. For My yoke is easy [unlike yours, I see], and My burden is light” (Matthew 11:28-29).
You keep the weekly Sabbath, and so you should, but the Sabbath within is what the one without is all about, and whereas you labor in the flesh, you ought to be laboring in the spirit to enter into that rest which He has promised and reserved for those who don’t sacrifice, but who obey God.
Lise: You are head of your house, though both of you may profess otherwise. So it is with all marriages, but the Lord has come to change that and make it right, as He ordains it to be. Don’t deter your husband from laying down his life. You will only be found to fight God, and nobody has ever succeeded in resisting His will. Take your place; only by the grace of God will you do so. Darrell must forsake his life, including his wife, as do any and all married men called of God.
Mike Lemon: You are also burdened, much so, and insecure. Find your security in God; you will never find it in men or in their works purportedly of and for God. You must follow the Lord without the city, “without the gate,” forsaking the honor of men and service to them for your sake. You can’t prosper any more than Saul of Tarsus prospered in his zeal for God before he was turned. Are you turned? Not as you need to be.
There’s much more than the external weekly Sabbath rest. For those who are weary in soul, there’s that inner Sabbath reserved for those who earnestly seek. I know of no Seventh Day Adventists who have received this, not that I single them out, because there are many who haven’t “kept the Feast of Tabernacles.”
It’s so hard for a rich man to enter into the Kingdom. You are rich. You are a pastor; you have training, knowledge, and an image to maintain; you’re supposed to be the strong one and must act the part, and it isn’t easy. But you’re poor, not in an evil way, but in reality, and if you humble yourself, the Lord will meet you and embrace you and, as a child, you’ll rejoice, as a child dandled on his father’s knee, carefree, one in whom his daddy rejoices. But Mike will have to go and it’s so hard for a rich man to go. Pride must be replaced by true and godly humility. Christ is able to do all things if you will.
Your wife also sits in authority over you; it isn’t even an equal partnership. Admit it, both of you; it’s true, as with others.
John Lacanilao, elder; Ben as well: You needn’t aspire to Western accomplishment; especially in the Name of the Lord you ought not to do so. While you would declare otherwise, intellectually you seek to be equal. You aren’t inferior if in Christ. There must be where you place your faith squarely, and not be a man-pleaser, trying to prove yourself. You have nothing to prove because you are nothing; none of us is anything. And you err in looking to emulate those who themselves are not accepted of God, though they appear to be otherwise. They are nothing. Don’t anger God by insisting on your path; He opens a door for you to receive praise and honor of Him, not of men. Get honest; you have seen better than that which you have pursued.
Jean Claude Lessard: You need to look up, to lift up your eyes and see the salvation of the Lord. The things of this world aren’t the issue to Him; flesh is expendable, as are the works of this world; the temporal does indeed pass away and, when it does, you’ll marvel and be in joy. You will see Him Who has been pierced and you will mourn, but your mourning will be turned to gladness, and you will worship Him in spirit and in truth.
Mike Schaber: You have followed that wide, well-trodden path of the generations before you and have thought to be established in the path above, which only few have found and traveled (Matthew 7:13-14), but it isn’t so. Repent of following man who professes to follow the Lord, seeking the crown and the throne, but refusing the cross. Humble yourself; you’re no better than the prodigal at the swine pen, but poorer because you still presume to have the inheritance. The One Who died for you calls on you to lay down your life (which entails everything and you have laid down nothing) even as He laid down His life for you.
Sharon Davies: There is a joy in the Lord few have known by obedience to Him. That joy is better than the joy of this earth. Don’t go by the appearance; avail yourself of the Lord, and He will bring you into that wide open space you seek, though you will only find it in the confines, without the city. Don’t rebel; it won’t prosper you to do so.
Mike Bowes: Yes, the Lord has laid on you a burden and an infirmity many do not have, but in lemons are the makings of lemon juice. Add the sugar of thanksgiving and faith in God and look to be accepted of Him and Him alone. You seek to be accepted of men and not to be perceived as less than they. You aren’t less and you will learn that in Christ and in Christ alone there is true worth, no matter if you are nothing or everything in this world before men.
Most with 2020 vision are empty and utterly blind and they are those you seek to measure up to or wish to have recognize you. You grieve the Lord by longing to please men and to be as good as them and accepted or recognized of them, determining to prove yourself. Are not all things in His hands? Cannot He, Who made the eye to see, see?
But His purposes are beyond your understanding, so stop striving with your Maker. When you turn to Him with appreciation, you will see that your reward is commensurate with the price and more so. In a realization of, and obedience to, these things, you will cut your hair, too.
Roy Wooliscroft: “The time is short: it remains, that both they that have wives be as though they had none; and they that weep, as though they wept not; and they that rejoice, as though they rejoiced not; and they that buy, as though they possessed not…” (1 Corinthians 7:29). If you seek the Lord with all your heart, He shall be found of you. Be thankful and know that He knows and that upon men are visited blessings in disguise, to be unveiled at the appointed time.
Consider that all things from the hand of God come because we either deserve them or need them. There is no righteousness with man, only wrongness. We are not condemned in that wrongness, only when we refuse to acknowledge it, grieving Him, and even then, we condemn ourselves; God does not do so.
Yvon Goulet: The same words of Scripture apply to you as to Roy. In fires and only so are we made strong. We are all unworthy, every one of us. Forgive your wife. Impossible? Yes, with us, but not with God. Thank Him for what has happened, not so that He will bring her back, but because of what He is doing in having hardened her heart toward you and removing her. The Lord is over all (Isaiah 45:5-7).
Jeremy Roque: If out of sand a clam is able to form a pearl, out of clay the Lord is able to fashion a precious gem. Only believe. He has given you a measure of faith He has not given to many others. In your obedience and acknowledged unworthiness, He will reward and direct your steps. Beware of men who will be employed to love and counsel you apparently toward the Lord but in reality away from Him. Don’t believe them. Take the hard path, the solitary one, the one with rocks and holes, not the paved one, and you will prosper in the One Who calls you.
Elaine (with Eldon) Hubbard: The Lord is Here, Now; you needn’t look for Him elsewhere, not in a closet or in a desert or in a church, but here, now, not before or after. “I AM THAT I AM.” Even Abraham saw the Lord’s day and was glad. So did and do others. Christ within; the Kingdom of Heaven within. “The word is nigh thee, even in thy mouth, and in thy heart…” (Romans 10:8); “…which is Christ in you, the hope of glory…” (Colossians 1:27). “The Kingdom of God comes without observation” (Luke 17:20), with clouds, yet you will see.
Claude (Eldon and Elaine’s): Only God can do for you what needs to be done, and that’s good, because when it’s done, you’ll know that He did it. Neither is it any different for any other. But in your poverty, you have great advantage because God shows Himself mighty and faithful especially to the weak, the widows, orphans, dispossessed, and outcast. Yes, you have advantage. Beware of your own strength; His alone will suffice and prevail.
Darlene Aldous and family: You are not superior in that you keep the Sabbath or have what you think is correct doctrine compared to others who name the Name of the Lord or because you belong to some religious organization such as the one to which you now belong. It is good that one should stand strong in what he or she believes but beware lest you do so at the cost of worshipping the Lord, the Father, in spirit and in truth. Anything else is idolatry and breeds self-righteousness. You trust in man’s strength and must learn to trust in the Lord and Him alone. He is not a religion; He is a Person, here, now. Having your own oil, you have everything and will not take pride; going by the oil of others, you have nothing but pride.
Larry and Pat Berteotti: The blessedness of the Lord doesn’t lie in knowledge or in strength of man’s wisdom; the Kingdom of God is neither meat and drink nor doctrine, but peace and joy and righteousness in the Holy Spirit, Whom God gives to those who obey Him, loving not their lives unto death, following the Lamb, not men, wherever He goes. First is the power of the Lamb, then of the Lion. “Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints.” Without death, we have nothing.
Althea: The Lord loves you and accepts you without your works and in spite of them. Your labor to be that saintly person before God is not honest or real and is not pleasing to God in the least. It is not our righteousness but His and His alone. We are all, every one of us, in wrongness. Neither is there anything we can do about it. It is the Lord’s righteousness and His alone. We grieve Him to think or to do otherwise. The Lord requires obedience by faith, not sacrifice by works. Are you as good as or better than He?
You Filipinos: None of you ought, even for one moment, to think to aspire to the white man or to the Westerner or to his ways. Such is idolatry and a sorry lack of appreciation for your Savior and God, the Lord Jesus Christ. He is grieved that you should aspire to men and their ways and not to God Himself. You say you don’t, but you do. There needs to be no feeling of inferiority or discomfort of being in a strange land, because God is over all lands. If you are humbled, it is good because He gives grace to the humble; it is the proud, those who have it all together, that He resists.
Do strangers have it hard? Of course, but God is over all and doesn’t count acceptance as men do. If you do well, and worship in spirit and in truth, you have all heart could wish; there is no more to have, and God, not men, receives the glory. Don’t glorify men; I repeat: Do not glorify men. God is the Author of your uniqueness; don’t despise Him by being ashamed or dissatisfied or unthankful for it. We are, every one of us, all in wrongness. He alone is worthy; He alone is righteous; He alone is to be worshipped; only His favor should we pursue.
I desire that none of you will be offended or count me as an enemy. In essence, I speak to all of you, urging you to enter into the Sabbath. Blessed are those who are not offended, but who humble themselves and seek after the Lord to be corrected, healed, and delivered.
Keep the Feast of Tabernacles. We invite you to join us on the Sabbath day at Harvest Haven on Saturday Oct. 14th at 2:00 p.m., or even the Friday evening before, and all 24 hours for that matter. There, you are welcome to rest, to worship, to fellowship, to dine, to express yourselves in order as you will, to bring forth that which you bear in your heart, and to listen to what others may have to say. It is our desire that you will have the freedom to do so, without opposition or shame. Only be prepared to give others the same opportunity.
Jesus Christ is Lord! He reigns over all! Blessed be the Name of the Lord!
Paul had plans to go to an agricultural conference in Missoula and asked if I wished to join him. I consented. On September 22, 2000, we headed to Great Falls and to Kerri’s little café. She had a new employee, Amity. Amity was Baha’i, lesbian, into the arts, wearing facial rings and funky hairstyle. She was very confused. I was firm and direct with her, and she was offended that I should question or “denounce” her beliefs. I left Kerri to deal with the aftermath, while Paul and I headed to Missoula the next morning.
The night of September 23rd, we arrived in Missoula. Paul and I decided to attend a Messianic meeting at Beth Tephila, led by Louis Levinson. We met him, his wife, and Donn and Cindy Walmsley. Louis was forming a congregation and pressing for membership in a Messianic conference.
The next day, Paul and I went to the agricultural conference and met and spoke to many people, among them a Buddhist, a Catholic, an artist and social activist, a black evangelical from Minnesota who was trusting in skill and knowledge, and several others. None of these people had a clue about the spiritual.
That evening we headed for the open meeting of Beth Tephila at Louis’ private home. There, Louis was presenting material to legally register with the government and incorporate “his” congregation. I withstood him directly, boldly declaring that God wanted no such thing, that saints needed to be free of government bondage, and that Christ needed no license, legal permission, or financial benefits like tax deductions from His creation in order to save it. I gave many truths and Scriptures while he could only argue that he wanted to be accepted by the community and other religious organizations.
He finally denounced us as false prophets. This was because we spoke of the reconciliation of all things. The last words I spoke to him were: “You’re glad for the controversy arising of this doctrine now because you’ll use it as fuel to get your way, formalizing your church corporation.”
Donn Walmsley was dismayed at Louis’ reaction, as were Miriam, a lady in her fifties or so, and Louis’ wife, Carrie. Louis was exposed. That night, we were offered to stay with Donn, who was apologetic about the way we were treated. Louis much reminded me of Elymas, the sorcerer of Acts 13.
Doubting if I should have shared the truth of the reconciliation of all things, thus apparently giving occasion to the enemy, I received two things: one, we are always being flushed out on this truth (as we were with the SDAs), and two, what we hear in the ear, we are to shout from the housetops.
Donn Walmsley asked me to come to the Orthodox Presbyterian Church in Missoula, his place of regular attendance. Paul and I both came to a Sunday morning service on Sept 24, 2000. There we met the pastor, Ron McKenzie. As we sang hymns in the pastor’s small living room, which held perhaps no more than two dozen people, tears came to my eyes, being moved by the music and words.
There we heard of Dan and Pat Kendall, whose son Josh took his own life only days before. I suddenly saw Josh, in a vision, in the afterlife. I saw his agony of conscience and regret at what he had done so brashly without considering the implications. Having been shown what was happening, I wrote a letter to the Kendalls, describing his state, actually and “doctrinally.” Here is the portion of the letter on the vision and understanding received:
Upon taking his own life, which was not the will of God, no matter what Josh’s motives were, he was initially in great pain… not physical but spiritual. There is such; even as there is physical pain in flesh wounding, so there is spiritual pain in spirit wounding; suicide is a spiritual wounding as well as physical. From there he went to shock and despair at what he had done, suddenly realizing that he had done a horrible deed that was entirely irreversible. There was no question that it was a foolish, desperate act, and there was not any opportunity of turning back. Suicide is the ultimate in burning one’s bridge behind him for the worse.
But here is the sure hope now (I saw this): Your son begins to settle into correction (judgment… judgment is not damnation or destruction but correction, purging, refining, discipline). There is hardship and suffering, yes, no two ways about it, not that much unlike that of this world. But this correction is to redeem him and redeemed he will be.
The Lord Jesus Christ is faithful; He has paid the price for your son, as He has for us all, and your son will ultimately be brought into the spiritual wholeness for which all creation has groaned and longed. And you will all one day see him. His discipline will not only be what is happening to him, but what he is doing as he goes through the correction, his nature changing to one of acceptability to the Lord, but all the work of God, not his (by grace are you saved, not by works – Ephesians 2:8-10).
How would I get the letter to them? I would have driven to see them but, for some reason, that option wasn’t open to us. I asked Donn to deliver it to them but when he saw the contents (I regretfully let him read the letter), he balked and said he would give it to the pastor for judgment and delivery. I wondered that the letter would ever get to them after all. However, I trusted that if they were to get it, the Lord would see to it.
The letter was a revelation for the Kendalls’ sakes. While it wasn’t necessarily what they wanted to hear, it would liberate them if they were to receive it, as opposed to the sentimental claptrap they were being fed to assuage their pain. They were told Josh was now in Heaven and at peace – that sort of nonsense growing out of harmful sympathy, emotion, and wishful thinking. One might wonder what harm could be done by such reassurance, even if false, but I believe people have a sense of what is true and, if told the truth and they believe it, they will be more at peace. If not, they will continue troubled.
Donn more than once mentioned a struggle with God and with sinning repeatedly. I shared many things with him. We spoke of the reconciliation of all things, Satan’s origin, deduction and induction, and the baptism in the Holy Spirit. I knew he needed to receive the Spirit, but wasn’t led to pray for him. Strangely enough, I suggested he talk to his pastor, but how could his pastor, not having the Spirit, help him?
Having said our goodbyes, Paul and I headed back to Great Falls and to Kerri’s. We spent some time in her café, speaking to a few people, and then returned home.
While I was away, Pat Kavanagh of Taber came to Harvest Haven. He related to Marilyn a prophecy and vision he had, and she didn’t know what to make of it. I didn’t believe it was of God. Lois heard, “It is not of Me.” Pat’s little visit would turn out to be quite significant, affecting many people for years to come.
From what I can tell by my record and our memories, it was on the fourth anniversary of Marilyn’s prophecy, September 24th, after Paul and I returned from Missoula to Great Falls, that Paul, Kerri, and I went to see Gladiator. Paul had seen it and was fascinated by its significance and relevance to the great, long-drawn experience to which we had just been subjected. Seeing the movie, I thought, “How amazing! How many times God has shown us in so many ways that He’s over everything, including the timing, of course, and He does all these things for us!”
When returning to Lethbridge, I recommended that Lois and Mark go see the movie, without telling them what we were seeing. They went. Lois immediately said it had shaken her because it represented what we had just lived through with Sean in such an uncanny way. The villain, Commodus, played by Joaquin Phoenix, even had Sean’s facial disfigurement, but Commodus’ personality and doings were the primary factors in the so-striking parallel.
As was the plot. Whereas Maximus’ and my positions were ordained from above, they were also usurped, and we both were sorely abused, even banished from our rightful destiny. We both suffered expulsion from our God-given rights, comforts, positions, and privileges. Maximus, as I, lost his wife and a young son to our ruthless enemy. He and I had to learn how to fight in ways we had not fought before. In both cases, the villain was guilty of patricide, though in that matter, I played both Maximus’ father and Maximus. Sean had, in effect, slain me, his spiritual father.
In each case, both Maximus and I were called to lay down our lives for the people and for good. It was a battle to the finish with a vain, ruthless, cunning, ambitious, and even demonic foe.
In each case, the foe was troubled. Finally, there was a face-to-face showdown.
Maximus and I had died fighting the enemy (howbeit I died spiritually – which is really coming alive in the next world, as Maximus came alive spiritually in the next world). Both our deaths led to freedom and glory. Our arch-enemy also died, but not to freedom or glory.
By Maximus’ noble deed, Rome was released from tyranny. In my obedience to the Lord, freedom broke out for the rest of us as well as for me.
There was even a parallel with the principal woman. Lucilla was known and seen of Maximus to be capable of compromise for survival and so was Marilyn a compromiser and more; she was fearful of the prospect of having to run the farm under great stress, and all the more sold herself to Sean as Lucilla had to Commodus. Though Lucilla did it in fear and Marilyn did it in fear, lust, and delusion, they did the same.
Maximus’ servant paid the price for his faithfulness to him, and Paul also paid the price of banishment and separation for a time with me. He was also slain, so to speak, even as his vision portrayed:
Vision – I Am Led to Crucifixion (August 16th, 1998)
I see myself being led off to crucifixion, carrying a cross similar to the account of the Lord in the Gospels. I then see Sean sitting on a throne, wearing a crown that sits askew on his head, leaning forward chin on fist in contemplation. He had ordered my death.
Everyone saw Sean as Commodus, except for Marilyn. She saw me as Commodus. I found it almost incredible, but at the same time, I was accustomed to it!
Most by far in Christendom, such as the Catholics, quote Jesus as having said, “I Was.” Many, like the Seventh Day Adventists and evangelicals, quote Him as saying, “I Will Be.” Some, as the Mormons and Jehovah’s Witnesses, quote Him as saying, “I Never Was.” Only those who are His quote Him as saying, “I Am That I Am and Will Be What I Will Be.”
Back in Lethbridge at the SDA church on Sept 30th, I was pondering. “Why am I here?” I asked the Lord. “It is so boring, we are subjecting ourselves to this religious garbage, and nothing is happening, Lord,” I said, while sitting in yet another SDA service, this time an evening devoted to their favorite entertainment, pastime, and raison d’être, that of Biblical prophecy and eschatology (studies of end times).
“You’ve been there before… twice now… or more, and not for nothing,” I heard as a reply.
“Yes, Lord, thank You,” I said, with some relief according to my faith. Sure enough, Jean-Claude Lessard motioned me over after the video, wanting to talk. We discussed marital relationships, Christ’s coming, the dead, and more. It was a lively meeting, not that I saw any results.
Lessard struck me as being Roman Catholic, and not only so, but one deliberately there to exercise powers of sedition, seduction, and sabotage on the SDAs. Why did I have that impression? Was it revelation? It wasn’t imagination, yet if not true, what could it be? Perhaps he was only a searching, even disgruntled or wayward, Catholic. That seems a more plausible explanation.
Page 9 PART ONE – Darkness to Light (cont.) Particle – My First Time Drunk Jim Puls, his friend Bill McCallum, Jerry Minarz (coincidentally entering my life again briefly), and I decided to go to a Ukrainian wedding north of Dauphin, in Winnipegosis or Fork River. Uncle Bill Atamanchuk was there. He decided to have some fun, poured me a six-ounce glass of straight whiskey, and strongly urged me to down it all at once, which I reluctantly did. Within 20 minutes or so, the dance hall was spinning around me, and I could hardly stand up. Bill McCallum and Jerry also got drunk; Bill was soon to become an alcoholic. Jim had the good sense to try to stay somewhat sober, because he had just bought a used Dodge car. While we all survived, the rest of us did not do it without Jim having to stop the car every so often to let us vomit. Particle – The Ciga-route Besides drinking and doing drugs, one of many habits I would surely urge anyone to steer very clear of is smoking. I tried it when I was in my early teens, but started on a more regular basis when I was perhaps eighteen. The first time I inhaled was sickening. How strange that people are discomforted, to the point of nausea, by something entirely useless and even harmful, yet continue with it! I suppose they do so in most cases to follow the crowd or mimic admired individuals. I think actor James Dean had an influence on me when I saw him on a movie billboard, walking the street with a cigarette in his mouth and a summe...
Page 2 PART FOUR– Bernalillo toMoon River (cont.) Particle - Flying Who hasn't wanted to fly? Why do we have airplanes and stories like Peter Pan? Most of us have dreamt of flying - by faith, that is, powered by believing we could. Within, we can. God gives us that power in our relationship with Him whereby our spirits soar. In May of 1984, I was given a song to express these things (Listen here). Flying... For the first time I am flying! It's what I've always dreamed of.... Freedom... What I've always longed for! Now I really have it.... Airborne... A worm I am in blossom! Mounting like a pretty Flutterby, away up high Up in the sky.... I am now an eagle In the heights of Heaven I can soar forever and ever and a day Away, away.... Flying... Finally I'm flying! Yes, I am flying! Particle - Poole Presumes Power Through the Andersons, we met John Poole and his wife. John, an ex-JW, was holding Bible studies for disaffected and disfellowshipped JWs. He was also instructing in Tai Chi. As we visited with them on July 10th, we were wondering if there was any opening to share the things of God. There was none. John took the reins, determined he was capable of shepherding, and was quite assertive about it. Particle - God Delivers a Man to Goodness Dropping in on Currie's Groceries while soliciting business, I had a talk with the manager, Craig Currie, the owner's son. He let me know they were having employee morale problems. I asked the Lord how I should p...
Page 10 PART ONE – Darkness to Light (cont.) Particle – Archie Shoots Up the Town During this time at MIT, I received a call in Winnipeg from my mother, who was very upset with me. Archie and a friend of his had gone to the Exhibition Grounds and elsewhere in Dauphin with a pellet gun and shot up a bunch of windows in public buildings. “Why didn't you tell me this was going to happen?” she asked. “Why did you put him up to it? Why didn't you stop him? What kind of brother are you?!” I was amazed. I had nothing to do with it or Archie, being busy in school and work 200 miles away. I knew nothing of it, yet my mother blamed me for Archie's stunts and crimes. For some reason, it seemed that my mother had it in for me from early childhood. I protested, and I think she realized she was wrong for blaming me, but she never apologized; however, I look back and think that I could have been more understanding with her in her fears and humiliation. Particle – Chickens Home to Roost Once while visiting Ron and Barb Hrehirchuk (my sister and her husband), I was playing with their boy, Ron Junior, in the living room, with several other guests present. Ronnie was about three or four years old. I picked him up by the ankles and swung him around. He was enjoying it, but his pants began to pull upward, exposing his underwear (and perhaps partially more). We had all been drinking, so I don't know what my reflexes were like or how long it took to notice something amiss, but my sister...