PART ELEVEN – The Issues of Life to Troublous Times (cont.)
January 1, our first day of 2005 was on a Sabbath. On this day, Paul once more talked to me about feelings for Sara. He said, “I was feeling toward her as though she were my daughter and she toward me as a father. Now we feel toward each other as husband and wife.” (Paul is old enough to be Sara’s father.)
My reply: “Whatever happened to brother and sister in Christ?” It was evident immediately, at least to me, that where they were coming from was carnal, expressed strictly in fleshly terms. I was disgusted yet again. Jesus Christ was nowhere to be found in the scene. Again, I sharply rebuked him.
On this day, we at Moon River, Helena and Harvest Haven had a conference call and discussed the problem of gluttony. We knew that many at the farm sought satisfaction, solace, and comfort not in the Lord and His work but in food. Being given a victory in my food problem, I could address everyone and call them to repent of a vice that had been prevalent with several of them.
Lois raised Mark and Trevor to be gluttons; she was accustomed to piling on the food and giving out desserts often and in quantities double the normal. I’ve addressed them on this matter many times.
I said, “No more. This is wickedness; it must go and we can’t tolerate it any longer. Besides living in sin ourselves, just what kind of example are we setting for those who visit us?”
From the deliverance God gave to me also came the paper The Perfect Diet. As soon as I was done with it, I wrote Repentance.
On January 2nd, 2005, I received that this year would bring better for Marilyn.
On January 16th, I told Marilyn she needed to retrace her footsteps to determine where she went off the path of life. I was immediately reminded of the day here at Moon River in 1995 when she notified me she was going to do what she willed, and that I would have to share her with others. When that happened, I disagreed and wept, but she stayed her course. That day, Sean publicly rebuked me without justification, and Marilyn agreed with him. She fell into instant worship of him.
As we talked, she recalled and confessed that when he was sent packing, she decided to remain with me but her heart went with him. Another thing she confessed to was treasuring a pocketknife he left behind. She was inclined to get rid of it but hadn’t done so. Her heart remained with him and she couldn’t say otherwise.
In dealing on the internet with the Frucheys, a couple presuming to be prophets of God, I wrote to them about what I had seen in a vision in January 2005:
I see a man with a Bible under his arm, dressed presentably, in the midst of others earnestly trying to help and reach him, but he, holding to himself in great bitterness and self-righteousness, steadfastly refuses to submit to any authority of God through others. In hypocrisy, appearing righteous, meek and friendly to men, he conceals his bitterness, but the spiritual man sees it.
You are hurting, Stan, big time. The problem, however, is not what men have done to you, but how you have reacted to their wrongs. You haven’t been able to turn the other cheek. Instead, you struck out on your own in self-pity and resentment. Your pride withholds you from humbling yourself before God’s rebuke and chastisement.
There are those who have tried to help and to reach you, but you have refused. Now you call down on all others that which you have erroneously perceived they’ve done to you, and which you would vengefully want for them. You’re trying to be nice, but your bitterness is acrid, seeping out of you, and permeating the atmosphere wherever you and your wife go.
‘Bloodlust’ and ‘deep religious bitterness’ are pure descriptions of you two. While men on earth don’t see, those in heaven do. You don’t fool them or God, Stan and Kat.
The vision I saw took place in a church building (a meeting hall). Stan was standing in the aisle with others here and there. It appeared the meeting was over. Someone was trying to speak to Stan. Some had tried to pray for him, seeing clearly that he needed help and correction, but he was sour. He was quite resolved within to resist any advances; he simply didn’t see that he had to receive anything from anyone, though he wasn’t open and honest about it. He had a false humility about him. He was quite religious. The rest of the description is as recorded in my letter above.
Stan and Kat Fruchey have been prophesying falsely in the Name of the Lord out of bitterness and self-righteousness. They have been trying to be righteous, but their evil is evident and contemptible.
After writing to the Frucheys and their subsequent rejection of our words, I knew we had hit home with our words to them. I then had another vision of Stan’s wife, Kat. In that vision, Kat sat up in bed in the middle of the night, troubled by the Word of the Lord we had spoken to them.
Days later, we received a letter from her, arguing, condemning, fighting. Her letter was like mire and dirt stirred up by restless waters.
Cody Dahl has gone back and forth, with changing moods and opinions. He questioned our calling of God for ministry a while ago. Today, on January 20th, we found out he lost $3,000 in Alive Magazines to the Calgary Sun, which claimed to have delivered them door to door for him. He also had them deliver calendars but knows they weren’t delivered, either. He pushes supplements against our counsel and refuses to bring offerings to us, even though he says he “greatly enjoys” our ministry. The man is incorrigible and doesn’t see his folly.
Conflict continues with Marilyn. On January 27th, 2005, I prayed publicly that the Lord would deal with our 30-year long conflict and settle it once and for all. On the 29th, something happened. Marilyn said I never believed God had given her to me and that I never wanted to marry her. All true! I could only admit it, realizing it to be true. I also recognized and wept that Marilyn had felt that rejection all these decades. She did, however, point out that we were both at fault.
God also showed me today that He chose and ordained the times and seasons for all things, both good and evil. He hardened me against Marilyn. He raised up Pharaoh for destruction; He does all these things, both good and evil, for the ultimate good of all.
Our “Two by Two” neighbor Gayle Watson wasn’t willing to indulge in discussion of spiritual matters with me, but she offered to send their bachelor ministers to our house to talk to us (“Two by Two” ministers do not marry). I consented and Lorne Moore and Mike Moulson came by.
We peppered them with questions. I say “we” because Marilyn was involved somewhat this time after many years of being withdrawn from any such activities with me.
I asked them if they believed we were believers. The men were evasive, trying hard not to answer but finally, with Marilyn’s help, they were cornered and forced to admit that they did not deem us to be true Christians.
I then testified of the Lord to them. I told them about my conversion, the trip to Israel, of Paul, my deliverance from vices, and mentioned masturbation.
It may have been my imagination, but I thought I saw a concealed wince with that mention, amplified by their silence. I gave them a card to our site and they left. Marilyn recalled how we had last spoken to people of this organization in Prince Albert in 1976; only then it was women who called themselves apostles.
Several times over recent years this has come to us. More and more we see a need to be direct with people – no pussyfooting. The more I identify with the Lord, the more He blesses me.
At Sabbath supper the question was posed, “What is your greatest pleasure?”
Marilyn: “Talking to and confronting people on their spiritual states, particularly when they profess faith and have none.”
Mark and Lois: “The peace of soul, thus enjoying all things.”
Ingrid: “Knowing the sovereignty of God in all things and enjoying meaningful discussions with people.”
Trevor: “Having the knowledge or assurance of God being in control.”
Jonathan: “Analyzing (sizing up) people and strategizing!” (He does both well at his age.)
When they asked me, I was prepared, with heartfelt thankfulness and enthusiasm: “I enjoy nothing more than to experience the privilege of being personally identified with the Lord in this world.”
Changes in varying degrees would come in their perspectives, all but mine.
Editor’s Note, April 2017: Mine would change, after several years, perhaps 11 or 12.
It’s always hard and hurtful to receive reactions like the one I now relate – this was one of the worst. On February 14th, 2005, an Otto Gerstmann (now Gershon) responded to The Issues of Life with the pretense of repentance and faith. He was very dramatic about it, and though it sounded strange to us, we responded with credulity. Then, he mocked us, toying. I responded with this letter and prophecy to him:
On Friday morning, just before 7 AM, MST, the Lord spoke to me saying that you were mocking us. How wonderful and very precious a thing you would have if what you had expressed in your apology and repentance were true and genuine! You have no idea, Otto.
You can deceive us. After all, we’re nothing special. We’re mere men with weaknesses and faults, in great need of our great God and Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ/Yahshua. But because you have used the great and precious things of YHWH to mock and to ridicule, you will have the very opposite of what you expressed to us. You are caught in your own trap. As it is written:
‘He frustrates the devices of the crafty so that their hands can’t perform their enterprise. He takes the wise in their own craftiness; the counsel of the cunning is carried headlong. They meet with darkness in the daytime and grope at noonday as in the night. But He saves from the sword of their mouth, even the needy from the hand of the mighty’ (Job 5:12-15 HNV). And:
‘Let no one deceive himself. If anyone thinks that he is wise among you in this world, let him become a fool, that he may become wise. For the wisdom of this world is foolishness with God. For it is written, ‘He has taken the wise in their craftiness.’ And again, ‘The Lord knows the reasoning of the wise, that it is worthless’ (1 Corinthians 3:18-20 HNV).
Even for the alumni of Stanford University, Otto.
As for us: ‘Therefore since we have this ministry, as we have received mercy, we do not faint. But we have renounced the hidden things of shame, not walking in craftiness, nor adulterating the Word of God, but by the revelation of the truth commending ourselves to every man’s conscience in the sight of God. But also if our Gospel is hidden, it is hidden to those being lost, in whom the god of this world has blinded the minds of the unbelieving ones so that the light of the glorious Gospel of Christ (who is the image of God) should not dawn on them. For we do not preach ourselves, but Christ Jesus as Lord, and ourselves your servants for Jesus’ sake’ (2 Corinthians 4:1-5 MKJV).
Without ceasing to give thanks for, and in awe of His ways,
By the way, Otto, we wrote, you wrongly criticized, we responded as you’ve described, you apologized, we readily forgave you, and after all that, we didn’t hear from you again. Instead, you sent us a simple ‘unsubscribe’ with no explanation, no trace of consideration or civility; quite the contrary. Why? Is that what we deserve, or is that simply how you generally conduct yourself?
You can see all of the correspondence here.
Cody and Dena Dahl arrived on February 18th for yet another weekend at the farm. This time, the words spoken seemed more for Dena than for Cody. Cody didn’t believe, had nothing, and would lose everything.
We often found ourselves encountering organizations, both religious and secular, that defined what a cult was and enumerated the characteristics thereof. However, we saw a common problem with all of them, that being that their definitions were according to their belief systems; the criteria were biased, prejudicial and unBiblical.
When measuring Jesus Christ by their standards, it was obvious He and His disciples stood condemned on many points. Furthermore, their definitions exonerated many that should rightly be condemned before God.
Akaid Diaz alerted us to the Christian Research Institute (CRI), headed by Hank Hanegraaff, and his criteria defining a cult. That did it. We decided to address the blasphemous error that condemned the Lord Jesus Christ, us, and true Christianity. We began to write The True Marks of a Cult.
Until this time, I had been on the defensive because many were branding us a “cult,” by whatever definition or criteria suited them. I wrote a paper, listing the many reasons people condemned us as a cult and declared that if for those reasons we were a cult, then so be it. The paper was, Are We a Cult? Now I was saying, “You are the cults!”
We were spending many hours every day responding to many letters, doing research, and writing articles. My eyes were sore and vision was deteriorating. I would try various strategies to alleviate the problems, like taking breaks, doing eye exercises, bathing my eyes, and giving myself a beige background instead of white to the documents I was working on.
All these things helped but there would come something else that would help even more, which the Lord would provide as an answer to prayer so that we could go on in the work to which He appointed us, which we considered a solemn responsibility and immense privilege.
The news came to us on March 9, 2005, that the company in which Bonnie Kam had invested was no more. Her money was gone. She told us later that she had lost about $70,000, her entire life savings.
On March 20th, 2005, Sara had a dream. Her record:
Paul woke me up and said, ‘Come look outside, Sara!’
I walked to a window and looked out on the land. I was in a castle, and in an upper room so that the sight stretched out below me.
The land immediately surrounding the castle was solid, but as I looked a little farther out, I could see that it was quite broken up with inlets of water, and out beyond that, only water. I seemed to be on an island in the middle of the ocean.
Victor also stood beside me, and he said, ‘There is no more land.’
‘No more land?’ I asked wonderingly. All of the world, the continents and nations, everything, had sunk below the water. I saw a ship sunken beneath the waves in an inlet of water. It was not an old-fashioned ship, but an ugly industrial tanker of some kind.
I knew that this was done by the judgment of God. It was an awesome thing to witness and to be kept from the destruction. I was not afraid, or sad, but awed by what the Lord had done.
Victor’s comment: This is the reality as it exists. The Lord is showing you that you needn’t expect much to happen other than what is happening with us. Like it or not, believe it or not, we are “the chosen few.” Look around you, reflect on what our experiences are, despite the thousands of contacts. They come professing, and go hiding or denouncing. The ship represents the works of men.
One may say that the Lord brings the judgment, and He does indeed do so, but we can recognize that He brings it by us as well. WE are responsible for the sunken ships, by the words He gives us to speak to judge the world. “Many will fall because of the words I have given you to speak…”
For all the time I’ve known Mark, since 1984, he had a problem with masturbation. There seemed to be nothing he could do about it. On March 13th, 2005, he wrote me a letter, confessing the continuation of his problem. He had done this many times before. This time, it occurred to me to ask him to retrace his steps, as Marilyn was asked to do. Perhaps the Lord would grant him direction out of his bondage. He was shown where his problem began.
When he was 11 or 12, acting against his conscience, he took a glance at a porn magazine. That was all it took – a glance, against his conscience, and he was hooked – 21 years of hell and torment for a moment’s pleasure of the flesh!
On this day, while I was in Helena visiting Paul and Sara, I spoke to Marilyn by phone. She still had Sean’s knife and said she would throw it away as originally intended when shown by the Lord. “Shown by the Lord”? What’s to see? What was the holdup, except she was still holding on?
On March 24th, I saw Walter Brust at the Lethbridge Public Library and ended up in a public conflict with him. I called him a damned fool and he did the same with me. I feel guilty about the way I acted, yet not so bad. It seems I mishandled the whole thing, yet it also seems that Walter needed to be “disrespected.” He seems to have gotten away all his life with expressing his critical opinions of others and never or seldom having anyone stand up to him in any way.
He dresses and acts as the suave intellectual (I like the way he dresses) and while he does not intimidate, he seems to impress others (myself included) as someone who one ought not to question or differ with. Then I come, publicly criticizing him as an ignorant fool, the opposite of what he portrays and deems himself to be. He was finally confronted and not only confronted but also exposed, because he lost it in the conflict, showing his hidden colors.
Sara had come from Kansas City with much baggage. Her background was a terrible one, as with many. She had little or no training in etiquette, hygiene, cooking, housekeeping, work habits, or general discipline. Lois tried helping Sara while she was at the farm but she had so much to learn – a lifetime of catching up. Today, on March 14th, I upbraided her for her lack of punctuality, something at which she consistently failed.
I record on March 31st that the pope has gone critically ill at age 84. I’m told his reign has been the second longest in Catholic history, surpassed only by Pius IX of the 1800’s. All the media and other major religions honor John Paul II as a man of compassion and understanding, breaking religious barriers. He is praised for looking for religious unity but people either ignore or are unaware of the fact that he seeks all to be united under him.
On April 4th, 2005, two days after the pope died, I had a vision. I wondered what had become of him in the next world.
I saw him about twelve feet away on a road, turned away about 130 degrees from me, starting to head into desolate places in lower regions, which seemed to be slums. He would experience the very opposite of what he had in this world.
For fame, he would have obscurity and ignominy; for glory, shame and humiliation; for riches, abject poverty; for respect, reproach; for praise, contempt; for sumptuous dining, famine; for authority, begging; for security, danger and doubt; for fine clothing, rags; for joy, sorrow; for social activity, loneliness. All those things he had had and which he had denied others while pretending to provide and champion for them were lost. He would receive the very opposite and these would be his reward.
I saw no humility in Karol Wojtyla. He still postured as though very important, and it almost seemed as though he was expecting things to change quickly, as though someone was playing a temporary game with him, or that what he was seeing was an illusion. He didn’t seem to believe it. The truth is he had been living in an illusion in this world and was now subjected to an unexpected, shocking reality. He would experience multiplied that which was the lot of the least of his former subjects.
“The first shall be last, and the last first” (Matthew 19:30). “He that exalts himself shall be humbled, and he that humbles himself shall be exalted.” (Matthew 23:12).
Today, a real farm is not at all as portrayed in idyllic pictures, with peace, comfort, cleanliness, and prosperity. The utopian farm scene is the product of imaginations and unrealistic dreams, rarely even hinting at the price tag of such goods. Should the farm become a pleasant and desirable place, it invariably takes blood, sweat, and tears to get there.
There’s a price to pay for anything of value. It takes vision, continuous commitment, money, training, skill, knowledge, discipline, and long hours of labor.
On Tuesday, May 31st, 2005, Sue Gathercole came to Harvest Haven to present us with VivaTru (Vivacare), a new MLM organization selling personal care products. We agreed to sign up. I liked the product (not passing judgment on the quality) but the sponsorship system was complex, initial signup fees were high, and there was the added burden of a set monthly auto-ship purchase volume for members to receive discounts.
Sara records a vision she had on May 31st, 2005:
While on the Chi Machine, I spoke, ‘Your responsibility is to believe (listen to, obey) those the Lord has sent to you.’ I wondered briefly who I was talking to, and saw Kerri listening to me. It seemed as if she had asked some question, like, ‘What am I to do?’ and I was answering her in the Lord, by the Spirit.
I met Brian Ward at Cody and Dena’s Journey of Health store in Calgary. He had been selling them his product, philosophy and religious doctrine. Dena reported him to be dogmatic and arrogant. As well, he seemed to hunt for weakness or fault and was ready to correct, not with love or concern or respect for the person, but to show himself superior. I found Dena’s assessment to be quite accurate.
I wrote the paper, Amway, Whence Cometh It? Reading it, Brian was offended that I accused Amway of lying. A correspondence ensued and I replied by email to many objections he had.
As well, Brian took issue with my declaration to him that there is a position and state in Christ of being free from the power of sin, even though we have the flesh that serves the law of sin, as with these verses:
“I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then with the mind, I myself serve the Law of God but with the flesh the law of sin” (Romans 7:25 MKJV).
“Everyone who has been born of God does not commit sin because His seed remains in him, and he cannot sin because he has been born of God” (1 John 3:9 MKJV).
I told him he didn’t understand these things because he wasn’t born again. He didn’t like that. He told me I was “judging,” so I gave him more of God’s testimony:
“But he who is spiritual judges all things, yet he himself is judged by no one. For who has known the mind of the Lord, that he may instruct Him? But we have the mind of Christ” (1 Corinthians 2:15-16 MKJV).
Brian didn’t think anyone could ever know for sure that they were the Lord’s, saved, and having His Spirit. I gave him more Scripture to address his error:
“So that by two immutable things, in which it was impossible for God to lie, we might have a strong consolation, who have fled for refuge to lay hold upon the hope set before us, which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and steadfast, and which enters into that within the veil, where the Forerunner has entered for us, even Jesus, having become a high priest forever after the order of Melchizedek” (Hebrews 6:18-20 MKJV).
Brian was a friend of Gordon and Edie Ross of California, prominent Amway distributors, whom I met at their convention in Palm Springs in 1971. Brian shared my paper with them. I would be interested to know how it affected them.
We covered many interesting topics (See the full correspondence with Brian Ward).
About midnight of June 3rd, 2005, while at home, I rebuked a filthy demon in Dena, one of cynicism. I was very angry.
It should not be assumed by the reader that this is anything unusual; it isn’t. Many people professing faith have demons; I suspect that most do. Most people have given themselves over to one false god or sin of one kind or another, or their parents have done so, the bondage passed down to their children.
Wholeheartedly embracing sin and idolatry invites demons in, and demons are eager to accept the invitation. One will readily find in the Gospels that multitudes had unclean spirits, which Jesus and His disciples cast out.
Early in the morning of June 6th, 2005, after getting involved with VivaTru, the MLM personal care products company, I had a vision. I saw the hind ends of fat, dirty pigs feeding at a trough, crowding each other. I had been thinking of our being in VivaTru and of its complexity. At the moment of the vision, I was thinking of Ralph and Lenore Eidse, my Amway upline Direct Distributors back in the early ‘70’s, and how I wished I could have had the spiritual strength to help them; I wondered about contacting them again, though it didn’t go well when last visiting them in their Morris Manitoba home in 1990.
On June 25th, a Sabbath, Mark, Paul, Sara, Cody, Dena, and I went to a VivaTru meeting at the Lethbridge Christian School to meet leaders of the company from Florida. The meeting place was arranged by Patty Ambrus, an evangelical who had spoken against me to Cody and Dena in Calgary.
Patty seemed to have made some extra cash because she charged for admission and there was a very good turnout of about 80 people. That is no way to sponsor people and gain their favor.
There we met Tony Alvarez, the architect of the super-complex marketing plan, and Lance Haverda, the upline distributor of our leg. Our strong sense and that of those we knew there, like Bonnie Nemeth, was that it was all about money and gain. How interesting her comments considering the vision I had!
I felt I needed to give the women a warning about VivaTru, that it wasn’t going to succeed. On June 26th, accompanied by Paul and Mark, I said what I had to say to about eight women present at a meeting at Sue Gathercole’s. Those I recorded being present were Sue, Kelly Hollyoake, Andrea Hertz, Marj Fisher, Kelly’s sister and mother.
I warned them of Viva and what was going to happen. I told them the vision and said that many were going to be hurt. Andrea nodded discreetly, Marj greatly withstood us, and Sue said: one, you have served your warning; two, it is perfectly clear; three, as your frog in the water, I am turning up the heat; four, I guess I have to take this road; five, I agree about the pigs in the trough; and six, I gave you ten minutes and it has been 3/4 of an hour. Sue and Andrea saw us to the door.
I mentioned in passing the inadvisable use of their microwave oven as we were leaving and was sorry that I did, fearing it took away from the importance of the moment. Why did I do that? These things weren’t the issue.
I delivered some groceries to Bob and Ron Gregson at Paramount Printers on Friday, June 10, 2005. At that time, Bob related a dream he just had and asked what I thought of it. I don’t recall exactly, except that he saw a grotesque, intelligent being that would normally be despised and avoided. There was an indication that Bob had a choice as to how he would react to this being. I told him I was that grotesque being and that he was viewing me as such a creature.
Particle – Be Direct and Unapologetic
I’ve often asked the Lord if I was too harsh, dogmatic and/or judgmental with people in The Issues of Life correspondence. On June 10, I said, “Lord, when I pray, You reassure and comfort me, reminding me of so many things in Scripture. Jonah was not ‘loving.’ You remind me of the words of Jesus to the religious, John the Baptist to the multitudes, Peter to Simon, Stephen to the Sanhedrin, James to believers in the 12 tribes, of Enoch and Jude, and of Paul and Elymas.
You remind me of the multitudes of blood sacrifices at all the solemn feasts and other times, of women eating their children in sieges, of Samuel hewing Agag to pieces, of Elijah slaughtering the 450 prophets of Baal, of Jehu slaughtering all known Baal worshippers in Israel, of Phinehas driving his javelin through an Israelite prince and his Midianitish sexual partner, and of Moses slaying the 3,000 Israelites for their fornication, with the Law, ‘You shall not murder’ fresh off the Sinai Press. You remind me of how You struck Ananias and Sapphira dead without even opportunity for repentance (Acts 5).”
Conversely, Satan rules in his kingdom by feigned faith and love, political correctness, stifling any freedom to speak, concealing the truth, and by fear. He is the consummate politician for selfish gain, the arch deceiver, and the world believes him and loves his ways. He is the emissary of “love,” the angel of light.
On June 13th, 2005, Paul again told me he desired Sara. I feel like packing it in with him; truly I do! Where is the prayer for one another? I don’t have it to pray for him or for anyone. Why not? “Let him that is holy, be holy still, and him that is filthy, be filthy still.” It is finished. The lines are drawn, no more to be moved by prayer – done.
I just received a revelation. Years ago, I vowed that I would allow no woman to steal my heart and receive the fruits of the price Marilyn and I paid together for over two decades. How could I do such a thing? I had no sooner said that than Marilyn betrayed me for a man much her junior, young enough to be her son. Now she has been shut out of that very fruit we together paid the price to have! How tragic! She has been barred entry to the city and state of joy, power, and glory.
On June 17, 2005, because someone had complained about us for some reason, we were cut off from the internet by Onewest, without trial or defense, and without identifying our accuser or determining any wrongdoing. How unjust! Is that any different than the dynamics of the Inquisition?
Lord, if You lead us in our work, it will be done. If it is our own doing, it will not prevail – I dare not continue.
On June 20th, Paul received that it was Rick Burley of Intelechi who had lodged the complaint, being upset with us. When we confronted him, he didn’t deny it (See correspondence with Rick Burley).
On June 21st, Paul had a new system set up. We were back online. Weeks later, however, on July 10th, Yahoo cut us down to about 300 subscribers without telling us why, and on July 12th, Telus would warn us of “abuse” of the internet, though they didn’t say how we offended, only that someone complained. We were told we could even have our site taken away.
Is Brian Ward responsible, as Marilyn suspects? He is certainly a proud man and was very upset with me for saying he was stupid, after his inane arguments against all reason.
On July 19th, Bresnan cut us off from bulk mailing.
So far, without any evildoing or laws broken of any kind on our part, Onewest, Yahoo, Telus, and Bresnan either cut us off or threatened to do so. Quite a record we were setting.
What happened to NDP (New Democratic Party) MP (Member of Parliament) Svend Robinson when he tried introducing a bill before the House of Commons to condemn the Bible as “hate literature”? He was caught on surveillance camera shoplifting an expensive piece of jewelry, which ended his career as a politician. We fear nothing from those who oppose God. He’ll take care of them.
At age 86, he is holding his last “crusade,” but using the word “revival” so as to not offend the Muslims after 9/11. He expects to possibly hold one more meeting in England.
Thirty years ago, You, Lord, made it clear to me that Billy Graham was false. He now has Parkinson’s, hydrocephalus, prostate cancer, and a fractured pelvis. He is noncommittal on homosexual marriage. On the late pope’s funeral, he said he was glued to the television on the ceremony. Of the pope, he said, “He showed us how to live, how to suffer, and how to die.”
Billy Graham was reportedly asked by the Vatican to lead an American delegation to the funeral but was too ill to do so; otherwise, all indications seem to suggest he would have.
Years ago, Lord, You told me Billy Graham would be confessing himself an unbeliever. I see it happening repeatedly with nearly everything he says and does, though it isn’t apparent to a blind world. People mistake his uncertainty for humility and don’t question his ambiguity.
In an Issues of Life mailing, we wrote about Billy Graham and his falsehood. We received an indignant reaction from many including “doctors of theology” and ministers. All indications are we’re right on the money, not that we need indicators; the Word of the Lord is More Than Ample.
In May, we sent Dr. Nathan Lipton, ophthalmologist and upper-level Hsin Ten distributor in Texas, a letter correcting him about things he had said in a recent newsletter. To a woman whose mother had died, he was giving false comfort by painting a rosy picture of an idyllic afterlife while ignoring the necessity of dealing with sin and the hardness of correction, which alone brings true and lasting peace.
Previously, we had warned Nathan about wishing all religions well on their sacred annual celebrations, knowing these were pagan observations God hated. One would think a Jew should know better, but Jews are like anyone else – in the dark without Christ. We also spoke against a philosophy he espoused, that one can attain whatever they wish by positive thinking and application of willpower. He didn’t reply to any of our letters (See correspondence with Nathan Lipton).
On June 28th, we were notified by Peter Poon of Hsin Ten Enterprises in Toronto that Nathan had passed away on June 20th, 2005, after suffering a massive heart attack on the 13th.
Question: Did we do that to him by our reproof, or was God giving him a last- minute warning by us, which he tragically ignored? I say the latter.
On this July 1st, Canadians celebrate Canada Day. Is it a day for celebration? We don’t think so. They ought to be wearing sackcloth and ashes, fasting and praying, confessing their sins. Parliament has just passed a bill, voting in same-sex marriage, Canada being the third country in the world to do so, behind Holland and Sweden, I believe. Now Spain has joined in. Even in Israel, where one might have hopes of Biblical morality, they launch “gay” parades and celebrations. Better for them to have mourning than mirth (Ecclesiastes 7:2,3).
While Mariko was in Japan, presumably having given up marrying Mark and living in Canada, I was led to invite her back to Canada to the farm. I felt that if she remained where she was, she would perish. I told her, however, not to entertain any thoughts about marrying Mark. I said it was for her sake only.
She arrived on July 12th. On July 10th, her father Isoya had urged that she marry Mark. She told him that was not why she was going to Canada. He replied her intention didn’t matter, just to be sure that she marries. July 10th has been a date (Another July 10th, Another Event of New Things on July 10, July 10, 1999, July 10, 1998, Another July 10th Event, July 10, New Beginnings, July 10, the Day of New Beginnings) for the start of new things. Mariko was exhausted and ill when she arrived.
As I was outside staining our home, a robin was quite distressed, alarmed by my nearness to her nest, though I wasn’t there to do harm. I thought of how You, Lord, are grieved when we are afraid in Your Presence when we ought to be at peace and rest instead. I was sad that the robin was distressed.
There was an incident between Brian Ward and Dena, in which Cody stood believing Brian and not Dena. That was the “last straw” for her. She left the store and refused to be involved anymore. Cody called to tell me she left him. Dena had not said a thing to us about anything.
Cody had a prayer request, asking for “tangible evidence” from the Lord concerning Dena if he was to believe her and not Brian. I asked the Lord for an answer, confessing that I didn’t have any answers. However, I told Cody that Dena wasn’t willing to flow with the world anymore. He was quite cynical and critical of her.
Minutes after getting off the phone with Cody, the Lord spoke to me saying, “Why should I give you anything for him when he doesn’t believe anything you say?” Of course!
Cody called the next day, saying he had the “tangible evidence” that Brian was in the right and Dena in the wrong. He spoke highly of Brian. I didn’t tell him what I had heard from the Lord. In the days to follow, Dena expressed that she believed us and wanted to be committed to the Lord. Cody became angry and combative with me.
I walked into our farm store and saw Mariko there from Japan. I greeted her and gave her a hug. Also waiting was a woman who looked at me as warily as would a deer coming out of the bush into an open meadow. She was cold and reserved. It was Suzanne Harvey. When I found out who she was, I understood. She had already been receiving The Issues of Life and I knew that was all it would take to offend her. I shook her hand and my peace didn’t return to me.
Suzanne Harvey had called us from Ontario, asking to spend 10 days or so as a volunteer at Harvest Haven to learn organic farming and we consented. In a few days, it was reported to me by all that she was hard, critical, closed, and despised us. Hers was a religious family and background – here is a portion of a letter describing herself and her spiritual status and attitude:
“As for my spiritual beliefs, I am of the opinion that all of us who confess Jesus Christ as Saviour should begin celebrating our similarities, agree to disagree on our differences, and get on with the work of spreading the good news. I pay little attention to denominations – I was raised in community churches, my grandfather was an Evangelical Free church minister, we served with a Baptist mission in Africa, and now we serve an Anglican parish. The long and short of it is, I like a good discussion but I won’t argue about it with anyone. God works in a plethora of ways in people’s lives. We are all on our separate journeys and God leads us to Himself by many means and in His time.”
She had been there, done it all, and knew it all. To the uninitiated, it may sound good, but her mouth revealed the confusion and darkness prevalent among nominal, denominational Christians – a putrid, lethal soup of misinformation, error and false love. Anything goes if it had God’s Name attached to it. Why else did the Lord command me to leave it all behind as I would leave my own dung behind?
If she was so ecumenical about her beliefs, why couldn’t she include us? But this a common contradiction of “Christian” self-righteous do-gooders – they cannot company with those who depend on and walk in Christ’s righteousness.
Suzanne lasted 7 days. She left Mariko with Rick Warren’s The Purpose Driven Life, telling her we were a cult and that there was much more out there of legitimate, healthy Christianity than I was leading them to believe. So Suzanne went her way and destroyed herself with her own mouth.
We participated in a Farmer’s Market at Coaldale on Friday, July 29th, 2005. There I ran into someone I had not seen or heard from for years. It was Dave Neufeld. Dave was visibly unhealthy. He told me he had Parkinson’s. I recalled our conversation in 1987 (Dave Neufeld, Two Jimmies Jimmying and Jimmied).
Page 22 PART TWO – Pentecost to Israel (cont.) Particle - Our Lives Never Our Own The BC trip wasn't fulfilling. My neck bothered me so much sleeping on the hard ground that I was brought to tears. There's no rest in traveling thousands of miles in two weeks. Stay home and rest! There's no rest in tenting, having to deal with occasional inclement weather and noise. Most of all, as a believer, there's no rest in seeking recreation or going sightseeing or doing anything as the world does and not as the Spirit of God leads. We never did it again. Particle - Fear of Man What torment we put ourselves through because of the value we place on the attitudes and opinions of others toward us. Realizing the effect of that grievous burden, we throw it off and are greatly relieved, until a day comes when we find it has somehow grown on our backs once more. We must make a choice between praise of man and praise of God. How sweet the deliverance from a chain that binds A man to many lords. Peace and rest come to his soul, Which he hasn't known before! The disquieted mind beleaguered with questions, Bedraggled with doubt and confusion, Struggles to know the answer at hand, Which seems to be an illusion. How fruitless the concentration On opinions of other people! How taxing the consternation About all their thoughts and actions! To the extent one values their words And seeks to be praised of men, To this extent are they his lords And idols are they within. Se...
Page 2 PART NINE - Signs of New Times (cont.) Particle - A Word for Darrell Beaudoin We met again with Darrell Beaudoin for 3½ hours. He subjected me to a Bible study and steered me into the SDA doctrinal position. Marilyn had these words for him: "What you are seeking to establish in the carnal will happen in the spiritual." Darrell was trying to bring me to a satisfactory spiritual place, as he saw it. The Lord was establishing that with me in reality and not in doctrine only, not that Darrell's Adventist doctrine was necessarily accurate. For example, he denounced the receiving of the Spirit and the gifts. I was surprised at this, seeing Ellen G. White was revered by Darrell and the SDAs as a prophetess and she exercised spiritual gifts. I saw labor etched into Darrell's countenance. I saw the man of sin, the mark of the beast, the manifestation of the power of flesh, the usurpation of the throne of God, the imitation of Christ. He advocated keeping the Sabbath, yet had no rest. Particle - The Coming of the Lord Marilyn and I had a discussion and disagreement of the nature of the coming of the Lord. I was struggling over whether it was spiritual, literal, or both. Marilyn declared she expected a literal and personal appearing of the Lord at some soon point in history. Particle - Pascal Requests Discussion Pascal Gregoire called, saying he wished to discuss home-schooling and vaccinations "for a few hours." Was he ...
Page 7 PART FIVE – Moon River to Harvest Haven (cont.) Particle – George and Gerry Croteau We had a slightly challenging time contacting George Croteau in Saskatoon. His name wasn't in the book, but his father's was. His father said George was very fussy as to who could talk to him. He had sheltered himself away, preferring not to talk to anyone. His father had tried pleading with him, to no avail. He gave us George's number, against his son's instructions to keep his number confidential, likely hoping we could help him. His father informed us George's wife, Gerry, had divorced him. The last time we saw George he had paid us a visit at our country home near Prince Albert in 1976. Gerry finally packed it in with George and we were told it was a nasty divorce. George crashed, big time – a major nervous breakdown. We found him in a cheap, unkempt apartment, watching TV, lying half naked on his bed. He meticulously tape-recorded every word we spoke, asking us to speak slowly; he declared he would analyze and classify everything said and done. He claimed he would produce a monumental, comprehensive work, even greater than the Bible. He had created a world of his own, one of delusive self-importance, an escape from his unpleasant reality. What we saw we deemed to be essentially self-pity and bitterness. George hadn't treated Gerry well at all. With her leaving, he began to mistreat himself. We tried to reason with him, but he wouldn't hear it. Yet again, we found our trip w...