“The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” At the time I wrote this, I sincerely thought and desired that I would give anything and everything. I haven’t changed on that except that the Lord has given me more since then and the more I have, the less possible it seems that I can give all. I now have a son and am much more appreciative of what it cost God to give His Son. We have these sincere thoughts as did Peter on the last night but to perform is terribly difficult and even impossible, I say. Only by the grace of God can we give Him everything and it is not without pain if we have that which is valuable to us to give.
But being a jealous God, we must surrender all to Him and He is faithful, patiently and mercifully enabling us to do His will.
I’d give anything
I’d give anything I own
And I mean anything
I’d only ask that what I give
Would be received by Him
That He’d be pleased to have received
All that I give to Him
My heart goes out to Him
My soul desires that all my firstfruits
Do return to Him
That there is nothing held from Him
That He would love to have
What sheer delight is it to give to Him
The best of what I have, the very best
The very best…
Yes, I’d give everything
So much do I love Him
That I’d give everything to Him
He’s given me all things and even
All my love for Him
I only hope that by His grace
I’d give Him everything
Everything, yes, everything.
Let me not forget to give You everything
Not just the first and best but everything.
Helena, MT; August 26, 1987
In Winnipeg, we met Henry Unrau, who laboured dreadfully under the Law, thinking he was doing God service. He was a tormented soul but a very self-righteous one who, while seeking counsel and help, quite believed that he was in a position of counseling and helping instead toward those who were not enslaved by service of the letter as was he. What ironies and contradictions in man!
An exhilarating path it is but a lonely one. Each segment of this path brings its trials and troubles but also its rewards along with proof and assurance that any segment of it is more than worth the endeavour.
At a time of discouragement I received these words from the Lord in song and at this very moment as I write this introduction years later in 1996 ( the song was written in 1987), I feel down after having spoken to people who do not believe what I say or that the Lord has sent me to them. Yet I have nowhere but onward to go and am persuaded that these words hold true and someday will be fulfilled.