“The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.” At the time I wrote this, I sincerely thought and desired that I would give anything and everything. I haven’t changed on that except that the Lord has given me more since then and the more I have, the less possible it seems that I can give all. I now have a son and am much more appreciative of what it cost God to give His Son. We have these sincere thoughts as did Peter on the last night but to perform is terribly difficult and even impossible, I say. Only by the grace of God can we give Him everything and it is not without pain if we have that which is valuable to us to give.
But being a jealous God, we must surrender all to Him and He is faithful, patiently and mercifully enabling us to do His will.
I’d give anything
I’d give anything I own
And I mean anything
I’d only ask that what I give
Would be received by Him
That He’d be pleased to have received
All that I give to Him
My heart goes out to Him
My soul desires that all my firstfruits
Do return to Him
That there is nothing held from Him
That He would love to have
What sheer delight is it to give to Him
The best of what I have, the very best
The very best…
Yes, I’d give everything
So much do I love Him
That I’d give everything to Him
He’s given me all things and even
All my love for Him
I only hope that by His grace
I’d give Him everything
Everything, yes, everything.
Let me not forget to give You everything
Not just the first and best but everything.
Helena, MT; August 26, 1987
I knew a man by whom I met Judas Iscariot. Judas, I learned, was a glory seeker, one who wanted in on the best this world had to offer and who was prepared to betray any association to get what he wanted. Ironically, what he wanted was belonging, acceptance, social security. He lost it all or rather, lost all opportunity of gaining such because he never did have it.
As we continued our walk with God by faith, we were disillusioned about our relationships with religious people and family. We discovered the value of true friendship, the cost of walking with God and how few there were willing to pay the price.
On September 24, 1996, Marilyn prophesied that the Lord was taking me, as He did Moses, for trespass, and that He had a ministry in the next world for me even as He had for Moses (as was seen on the mount of transfiguration). There came a resignation on my part, with sadness, and in this circumstance came this song which expresses that God does have a place reserved for saints. It is the destination of every believer, the goal of his spiritual trials and journey.