Hi Dinette,
You say you believe God loves you. Indeed He does, which is why He brought you here in order to hear the Truth and to learn His ways that bring life and the peace you've lacked.
John 3:16-21 MKJV
(16) For God so loved the world that He gave His only-begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
(17) For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but so that the world might be saved through Him.
(18) He who believes on Him is not condemned, but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only-begotten Son of God.
(19) And this is the condemnation, that the Light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than the Light, because their deeds were evil.
(20) For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light, lest his deeds should be exposed.
(21) But he who practices truth comes to the Light so that his works may be revealed, that they exist, having been worked in God.
You have come to the Light - the revelation and teaching of the Lord Jesus Christ He has given us. Your thirst for the truth will be quenched as you learn His ways and walk in them. You will be set free as the Lord promised:
“Then Jesus said to the Jews who believed on Him, If you continue in My Word, you are My disciples indeed. And you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free” (John 8:31-32 MKJV).
What have you been reading on our site so far? Read as much as you can, Dinette. Dine on the Truth!
“Ho, everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat. Yea, come, buy wine and milk without money and without price” (Isaiah 55:1 MKJV).
Here are some writings we can suggest for starters (not that you shouldn't read others as so inclined):
Repentance
Obedience
How One Is Saved
Grace The Reality
What Is Faith?
The Cross - Only the Death Sentence Will Avail
What It Means to Be Born Again
So You Want to Walk with Jesus
The Sons of Correction
You also ask about tithing - read our section on
Tithes & Offerings.
Let us know how you're doing and if you have any questions.
Paul and Victor