Is This Dream from God?

[Paul Cohen]

From: L
Sent: Thursday, December 31, 2015 12:00 PM
To: victor@thepathoftruth.com
Cc: paul@thepathoftruth.com
Subject: Re: Emailed yesterday, IMPORTANT

Hi Victor & Paul!

I am learning a lot from your site, thank God. I have a lot of questions. In the NT, Paul was writing a letter to one of the churches and he was stating that they were still drinking milk because the topics were elementary, like life after death, etc... I am still very much a baby when I read that. I thought "uh oh, I don't know the truth in these elementary things" I will be patient and take it one step at a time and hope to learn from you guys. I truly am so happy and excited and drinking all I can from your site.

Hebrews 6 "Therefore let us move beyond the elementary teachings about Christ and be taken forward to maturity, not laying again the foundation of repentance from acts that lead to death,[a] and of faith in God, 2 instruction about cleansing rites, the laying on of hands, the resurrection of the dead, and eternal judgment"

I would love to share my dreams for help in discerning if they are from God or not, but if this one turns out it isn't, it will severely affect me. Because I have quite a few, I don't want to burn out writing them all and giving you a book to read from an email (this one dream alone will be a book with all the revelation and how it ties in to everything). I will start out with one. The reason I have chosen this one is because it is the revelation in this dream that I know you guys are teaching truth as how God showed me in this dream. This dream seemed simple at first, but over the last two years, I keep being taken back to it and it is bigger than I thought. This is not the dream that made me believe there was a God. I got this dream a couple of months later. Before going to bed, I asked God to please show me who or what is the Holy Spirit. People kept referring to the Holy Spirit and I didn't know if it was an actual spiritual being (like a human form in spirit) or was it just a power force, not a spiritual conscious being, kind of just like the power of God. I really had no clue and didn't understand why the Holy Spirit is a "big deal". I had not read the bible at this point in my walk that I remember, but if I did, then it wasn't much. I can't really recall.

That same night, this is what I dreamed:

I was at the opening of a cave, but in the shadows. I see a man at the back of the cave standing on a smooth stone kind of platform. This stone really stood out because it was different that the rest of the rock texture from the cave. There was a light illuminating that stone where he stood, and I didn't know the source of the light on him, but it was warm, inviting. The man was facing to the right, with his head kind of bowed down, wearing the same robe I have seen him wear in my other dreams, with his head covered by the hood of the robe (I have dreamed about this same man 3 times). I have never seen his face. The cave itself looked normal but not. The cave rock was normal color but there seems to be sparkly or glittery but I couldn't see any jewels or stones. There was a really shallow creek of water and the water was sooo clear in some parts that it looked like glass but in other parts the water was a beautiful hue of blue. It looked like the creek floor had jewels or stone, but I didn't see any, but I could see it was like sparkly too. It is hard to say.

When I see him, I try to be very quiet and still so I don't disturb him and I was thinking to myself, "Is this Jesus? Is this Moses, Abraham? a biblical man of God?" I was in awe. I simply do not know who this man is that I keep seeing. Then the man speaks or a "knowing" comes to me but I can clearly hear words and he says "I have brought you here to show you the Holy Spirit".

suddenly out of the left side of the cave from where the man was standing, I see like an invisible rush or power or force, I don't know how to describe it, come rushing towards me and hits me. I felt the power of it and it was so strong that it knocked me down and I woke up. But, this is the strange part, from the second where it hit me and me waking up, in between that second, I saw something, it like gave me or downloaded all this information INTO me.

I saw microorganism and how they tie in to dirt and from dirt, to roots and plants. I mean, i saw it happen before my very eyes. It is like I was seeing everything living from the foundation and up, from the beginning. I saw the "workings" of the world and how it all ties in together. And since I was seeing everything from the foundation, I could see which plants had nutritional value, or poison or healing properties. I saw what animals eat what and why, and us humans too. I saw the connection to all living things. I was thinking "Us humans are so dumb! Everything makes sense and is crystal clear! If we understand the foundation, we can come to understand everything and if we understand the foundation, we can see where things go wrong too!" Then I hear a voice or a "knowing" but I can hear a male voice say "I am the revealer of all truth. Most of what you have been shown you are not meant to keep". I remember thinking "It said MOST, maybe I get to keep SOME!".

So in that second, I saw all of this, but it didn't feel like a second! But of course I am not doctor or genius because although I saw all this and understood it in my dream, I do not hold that information in real life and couldn't tell you anything about any plant or tree, etc... But when I woke up in real life, my first thought was "was this just a dream?" No sooner does this thought leave my mind when I get hit by the same "force/power" right there on my bed, while my husband was laying next to me asleep! I began to cry and praise God saying "oh my God, I can't believe you answered me, oh my God, I can't believe this". I was so impacted truly. But later, I began to doubt myself and I will explain why later in the email.

So for a while, I dismissed everything I had seen (cause i wasn't meant to keep it) and only understood from that dream that God was not just a part of the religious world and had nothing to do with the rest of the world, but that He was creator of ALL, He was not to be excluded in anything. After a few months, this dream made me think, He is God of the living! So it began to make me think about my food and how it is processed, and what I put in my body. I began to have this thirst for knowledge, not just only about God, but everything He created and the system He himself established. I began to think that we are wrong to mess with the creation of God and think that we need to add fluoride to our water, when God made it perfect. Why we put chemicals to make our veggies grow, or hormones in our animals for food. It made me use my common sense and not see things on a superficial level, but to see things deeper, a connection to God. I began to make me want to go back to the natural order of things of how God had established it. Although it looked from the outside that I was starting to become a "tree hugger" I wasn't, I was truly doing this for God because of this revelation. I stopped drinking fluoride water, stopped using fluoride toothpaste, I stopped using deodorant and went to natural ingredients. I began to study and learn how to plant a garden, gathering information so I can grow my own vegetable garden next spring. I would pray to God and be amazed at the "circle of life", which I never contemplated before. This revelation began to make me see God from a whole other perspective i didn't expect and began to respect His creation. But God was my reason for this, it was His creation. I wanted to align my actual real life with how God had willed.

Then later, that dream revelation kept getting bigger! Then I saw how it ties in with the bible and its truth of God. How the foundation of truth is where we must be grounded on. So although I saw another "Christian" doing something outwardly, when they would explain their reasons, I saw that their foundation on how they got there was not on the correct foundation. I struggled with that because to other people, as long as you were doing it outwardly, it was ok on how they got there, or their reason for doing it, the outcome was the same, but from this dream, this was not so. The foundation had to be PURE, and TRUE and if you start from that correct foundation, you can see where people have gone wrong in their walk and help them get grounded on the true foundation. Just like you could see it in my dream from the plants and trees, etc... There could not be not one bit of corruption because if there is, no matter how the surface looks like, the corruption spreads...that is what this dream showed.

Then from reading the bible, it was very clear, that the way to worship God is in TRUTH and spirit, and God is HOLY, meaning there is no corruption in Him. So I began to seek answers, but if it wasn't 100% truth, I knew it was corrupted, no matter how good their argument. But this is where my real struggle began. No matter how "seasoned" the "Christian" was, there was no one seeking to serve God as how God wanted, but how they wanted. And it began to make me doubt myself and I began to think that perhaps I was wrong and I didn't need to do all this and I could live my life normal as how I had always lived it. They kept saying that God understands how we live and we are ok, as long as we love Jesus, He is healer and will bless our corrupt food, etc... But I couldn't ignore this dream, I couldn't ignore the revelation. So I just kind of stopped listening to them and said "God, I hope it is you because if it is not, I am going crazy! Please don't let me down, I will do it your way, even if it means I walk alone but please do not let me down, I am banking everything on You." It was so hard pressed in my heart, I could not ignore it, even if I wanted too! I am lazy, so trust me when I say, it would be been easier to listen to Christians and take it easy and ignore it. I loved learning about veggies and gardening and composting, rain collection systems, and organic seeds, etc.... (I am still learning and in no way a doer yet, but slowly plan)

So my naïve thinking was this...I am a nobody, but a sinner, and God has been showing me Himself thru revelation, but if these people are the "true church" (as they all claim), why hasn't God revealed it to them? I was really confused on why God didn't reveal all these things to everyone how claimed Him? If God was talking to them too, why wouldn't God correct them and show them like He had shown me and I am not even His. Most claim to hear from God and be lead the Holy Spirit. I had a hard time understanding, if God was speaking to them, why couldn't they simply ask Him to reveal the truth. So I began to think perhaps I was the problem. These people were perhaps so spiritual, that I was only understanding things from a simple view. I mean, I seemed to be doing things way different and seeing it very different. My days began to be consumed by learning this stuff and also reading the bible and a lot of contemplating/meditating on what I was learning but only because of God.

People kept telling me I need to go to a church and have a pastor. This really bothered me because I felt like, "why isnt' the Holy Spirit enough?" Didn't the bible say that it is the Holy Spirit that teaches? I mean, one dream and I had food to feed on for a long time! I mean, just this one dream alone and it is 2 years and I am still getting food off that!

I tried going to this church or that church...never to return because I felt empty and not fed. I think in the last two years I have gone to church about 6 times, give or take, most of these different churches. I couldn't understand how these people got fed because I didn't feel fed at all. Then I had my mom saying that perhaps it was Satan/Devil playing with me because God doesn't work today like in the bible. I began to be afraid. But I could not ignore the revelation. How could something be true and if we stop and just THINK, it really is true, in our actual lives if we only just look deep enough and follow the common sense/truth all the way.

I mean, I could just go on and on about how this revelation was contrary to everything I saw in Christianity.

It is important you understand and know where it is that God began to pull me from and why I had so much doubt and such an internal battle fully accepting this dream/revelation. Before receiving my first dream where I began to believe there was a God, I was/am a worldly sinner. My life consisted of going to work, coming home, getting high/stoned and then being addicted to video games. I can't tell you how deep and bad my addiction to video games was. I would literally waste all my time there. My husband is an alcoholic, a smoker and we would both get stoned together. We looked forward to the weekends so we could "party" with my sister and brother in law. We were the bunch that were not believers in God so we hung together. I wasn't looking to change my life in anyway at that point. I looked forward to going home and getting high and would get excited being at work, just thinking about going home. That is only the tip of the ice burg. Prior to that was worse still. (I will expand on this later, because I had cried out to God in desperation a couple years prior but since He didn't appear to help me in that instance, I made up my mind that there was no God)

So when I received the dream that made me turn and seek God, I was still doing much of what I just described. So much of my doubt and frustration was because I didn't know if I was truly experiencing this or perhaps the pot was making me crazy. There were even points where I felt like I just wish I could go back to my sinful life because I felt crazy and it was easier to be ignorant. But my heart wouldn't let me, the revelations were so pressing and TRUE. I know my fault is I have no self discipline and I thought, Ok God, I know I lose interest fast so if this is You, You will need to carry me thru because I get bored easily, I love my sin.

The two years and a half years have been full of doubt, fear, confusion, lot of crying, lot of repenting, lot of learning, taking one step forward, two steps back. Going thru periods of absolute thirst, followed by periods of no thirst, but mostly, having this walk be a lonely one. Having to press forward on my own, (even that was revealed in a dream that I hope can also tell you about later, which has carried me this far). I began to stop feeling I had anything in common with the world and it just naturally happened that I began to be separated. Oddly enough, I was really ok with this. I didn't WANT anything to do with it anymore. Because although I am going thru such a hard road, at the same time, I saw the faithfulness of God, and I would truly praise Him and thank Him and feel so blessed that He would show these things to me! He Himself built up my faith, not me, by revelation and truth being confirmed and His Word.

My life began to slowly turn around. I began to hate my sin, even while I was doing it. I stopped hanging out with people I would go out with and drink, get drunk and gossip/slander people. Although it took a while, my love for video games stopped and I began to hate it, and my smoking pot too. It was like, God had shown me so much, that I began to truly trust Him and love Him and He made my faith grow more with these revelations and I began to want/need Him more than I wanted my sin. When I stopped doing all these things, my sister and brother in law no longer come around. It began to change my dynamics with my husband since we were no longer in the same things. Although he lives the same lifestyle, as before, he was very supportive and has never prevented me from pursuing God and making changes. When I stopped smoking pot, he stopped too, since it was never handy anymore since I would be the one to buy it. He would be on one end of the room drinking, playing video games and I would be on the other, studying the word or hearing a sermon or studying about gardening, etc....

But strangely enough, it wasn't burdensome. My heart was no longer in it, it was beginning to change. I truly began to lose interest in anything worldly and its pursuits. It happened by itself. It was a lot of correcting, and crying and feeling " I WILL NEVER GET THERE". wherever "THERE" is. God keeps pressing me to keep going, that there is more. But I don't know what the MORE is. I am thinking the baptism of the Holy Spirit or truly having Jesus manifest Himself and truly having a personal relationship.

It sounds nicely composed in this email, but the walk has been a hard one, truth be told. If you knew how many times I have been wrong, or backslid. (I backslid earlier not too long ago for about a month) It was those frustrating moments where I would be like I GIVE UP, God, you do it cause I can't, and so I am just going to be still and let you do it, im digging myself into a hole of confusion and frustration. Although things in my life were changing, I would see more of God's holiness and feel even MORE dirty and see more sin, than where I had started. I was like "how is this possible!?" It was like I became sensitive to everything around me and what God had revealed. How I spoke, and not so much my action of doing something, but my intent, it was like a real look at my true actions and intentions, inside. I was no longer ok looking nice on the outside but having bad thoughts on the inside, I realized from this dream that I have to be pure, in word, thought, actions. So everyday I would feel like I sinned! Sound strange? I couldn't ignore it, it pressed in my heart. I am still going thru repentance of my entire existence! That is the point I am now! I am seeing that my entire existence has been in rebellion. Even during my walk! (I will expand on this also in another email, because it is your website where the fullness of my rebellion was revealed!)

And that is where it brings me to your website. I had just gone thru a period of confusion and was frustrated and said, Im being still God, please take it, im making a mess again. Here I am, at your website.

I was getting frustrated that there simply is not pure truth anywhere and I was tired of looking for it! What God has been showing me thru revelation, I found on your website. How you would pick up on people's spirits and respond with truth to make them see their error. I mean, I was beyond myself! I was like.. IM NOT THE ONLY ONE LOOKING FOR THE PURE TRUTH. They speak it and believe it too! In all fairness, I tried to look for error, because I had not come across another site or preacher or church that had what I was looking for. Each had truth but then corrupted in some way.

So see, although I don't know even the most elementary things, this one revelation does not let me leave from the foundation of truth! I look deeper and if there is one lie, I can't accept it. Since I don't know what the truth is on every subject, I don't know the answer, but if there is already a lie in there, no matter how small, I reject it. That means they don't have pure truth and they might lead me the wrong way. So I reserve my opinions on any "doctrine" (as God has taught me thru trial and error) until the truth is confirmed.

All this from this one dream and its revelation. It has set a foundation and I can't depart from it. I didn't even set it! It has such a high standard and can get frustrating for me being "new" , and I guess not so new after two years. I don't know when we stop being "babies" but I know I am not a mature Christian. It has been two years and I feel like I just am grasping the concept of the foundation! Which is so huge and a lot to take in!

Again, the reason I need mature Christian to test the spirit of this dream, is because I was still getting high during this time I received this dream. So I have hated my sin even more because it gives me so much doubt now that I want to really know if it was of God. I have heard that a lot of "geniuses" get knowledge or come up with the greatest invention or music when they are high on drugs. I get so fearful that that is what happened to me!

Please correct/rebuke and instruct!

Thank you!!
Sorry for it being so long.

From: Victor Hafichuk [mailto:victor@thepathoftruth.com]
Sent: Thursday, January 14, 2016 7:54 AM
To: L
Cc: 'Paul Cohen' <paul@thepathoftruth.com>
Subject: Your Dream

Hi L,

I’ll comment on excerpts of your letter:

“The reason I have chosen this one [dream] is because it is the revelation in this dream that I know you guys are teaching truth as how God showed me in this dream. This dream seemed simple at first, but over the last two years, I keep being taken back to it and it is bigger than I thought.”

I can’t argue with 2 things concerning your dream: one, according to your report, it speaks some true things and two, it certainly seems to have a positive impact on you. After all, you are here at TPOT and are persuaded that what we preach is true. Yet Satan speaks true things and will agree with truths, too. He is a cunning one, made that way for God’s great purposes.

However, there are undeniable fruits of error and deception. Since the dream, you speak of trouble (not that trials and fires don’t come to the faithful saint). These are not the fruits of the Holy Spirit of God or of the Lord’s visitation:

“The two years and a half years have been full of doubt, fear, confusion, lot of crying, lot of repenting, lot of learning, taking one step forward, two steps back. Going thru periods of absolute thirst, followed by periods of no thirst, but mostly, having this walk be a lonely one.”

If we go on to consider more, one thing that concerns me, again according to your report, is that the Lord didn’t plainly identify Himself; you say you don’t really know who the person was, though you had seen him on two or three other dream occasions. As well, his face was hidden and he was wearing a hood. I don’t see Jesus Christ or an angel of the Lord hiding His identity or wearing any such thing.

The Holy Scriptures are the Word of God invested with His Authority and Judgment in all matters. Search them and nowhere will you find there to be any event in which the Lord or His messenger has failed to let the one receiving His message know Who is delivering it. In all the instances that have occurred with me seeing the Lord, He made it very clear it was Him. Even when the Lord first appeared to me before I believed, there was no doubt whatsoever it was Him: Victor’s First Three Dreams from the Lord.

Another thing that concerns me is there’s no sense of sinfulness or mention of repentance during the dream, key elements of meeting the Lord and of salvation, but there was plenty of emphasis on knowledge.

We know all about the Tree of Knowledge now, don’t we? Satan said that when Eve ate of that tree, she would be as God, knowing good and evil (Gen. 3:5). God said the same (Gen. 3:22). They both said the same thing and they both spoke the truth in that matter.

Genesis 3:1-5 MKJV
(1) Now the serpent was more cunning than any beast of the field which the LORD God had made. And he said to the woman, Is it so that God has said, You shall not eat of every tree of the garden?
(2) And the woman said to the serpent, We may eat of the fruit of the trees of the garden.
(3) But of the fruit of the tree which is in the middle of the garden, God has said, You shall not eat of it, neither shall you touch it, lest you die.
(4) And the serpent said to the woman, You shall not surely die,
(5) for God knows that in the day you eat of it, then your eyes shall be opened, and you shall be as God, knowing good and evil.

Genesis 3:22-23 MKJV
(22) And the LORD God said, Behold, the man has become as one of Us, to know good and evil. And now, lest he put forth his hand and take also of the tree of life, and eat, and live forever,
(23) therefore the LORD God sent him out from the garden of Eden to till the ground from which he had been taken.

You said, “I mean, just this one dream alone and it is 2 years and I am still getting food off that!”

The Tree of Knowledge can feed indefinitely…ever learning (“getting food”) to feed the pride of life, yet never coming to knowledge of the Truth, Jesus Christ, Whom we love and serve.

You mention “a light illuminating that stone where he stood, and I didn't know the source of the light on him, but it was warm, inviting”

Of all the times the Lord has appeared to man, seldom is it warm and inviting. Consider the times the Lord appeared to Jacob, Moses, Joshua, Isaiah, Gideon, Saul of Tarsus, John, and others. Almost without exception, the Lord comes in shocking ways, but the enemy comes in a pleasing way. I’ve heard from those who haven’t known the Lord of similar enemy visitations many times.

And why, L, would the Risen Lord present Himself and speak to you from a hole in the ground (cave), and with His head covered and bowed down (“with his head kind of bowed down, wearing the same robe I have seen him wear in my other dreams, with his head covered by the hood of the robe”)? No, we’re dealing with the subtle serpent here.

Also, the Lord doesn’t normally approach people to whom He makes Himself known for revelation’s sake by rushing toward them and knocking them down.

“I see like an invisible rush or power or force, I don't know how to describe it, come rushing towards me and hits me. I felt the power of it and it was so strong that it knocked me down and I woke up.”

You write: “Then I hear a voice or a ‘knowing’ but I can hear a male voice say ‘I am the revealer of all truth. Most of what you have been shown you are not meant to keep’. I remember thinking ‘It said MOST, maybe I get to keep SOME!’”

Jesus Christ is not only the Revealer, He IS the Truth; He is God Almighty. I have to say it’s the enemy usurping authority as prince of this world, making the claim he’s “the revealer of ‘all’ truth.” How shall God refer to himself as the revealer of all of Himself? The enemy has knowledge of this world, but his knowledge is independent of a relationship with God and there is no truth whatsoever in Him:

“You are of the Devil as father, and the lusts of your father you will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and did not abide in the truth because there is no truth in him. When he speaks a lie, he speaks of his own, for he is a liar and the father of it” (John 8:44 MKJV).

You say, “When I see him, I try to be very quiet and still so I don't disturb him”

If you were in God’s Presence, you wouldn’t have to try being very quiet and still lest you disturb Him. You would be as dead in dread, in the overwhelming fear of God. Two examples:

Isaiah 6:1-5 MKJV
(1) In the year that King Uzziah died I then saw the Lord sitting on a throne, high and lifted up, and His train filled the temple.
(2) Above it stood the seraphs; each one had six wings; with two he covered his face, and with two he covered his feet, and with two he flew.
(3) And one cried to another, and said, Holy, holy, holy, is the LORD of Hosts; the whole earth full of His glory.
(4) And the doorposts moved at the voice of the one who cried, and the house was filled with smoke.
(5) Then I said, Woe is me! For I am undone; for I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips; for my eyes have seen the King, the LORD of Hosts.

The apostle John wrote: “And when I saw Him, I fell at His feet as dead. And He laid His right hand upon me, saying to me, Do not fear, I am the First and the Last” (Revelation 1:17 MKJV).

The next thing I have a problem with will be covered in this paper: The Asininity of the Trinity. The Lord is One. You speak of a man you don’t know, a light from above, the source of which you don’t know, and a power you don’t know rushing and hitting you. Three unidentified entities but no glory for Jesus Christ. This dream was not of God.

You write: “The foundation had to be PURE, and TRUE and if you start from that correct foundation, you can see where people have gone wrong in their walk and help them get grounded on the true foundation.”

You speak of knowledge and information as the “correct foundation,” but what do the Scriptures say? Paul says:

“For any other foundation can no one lay than the one being laid, Who is Jesus Christ” (1 Corinthians 3:11 MKJV).

“…and are built upon the foundation of the apostles and prophets, Jesus Christ Himself being the Chief Cornerstone” (Ephesians 2:20 MKJV).

You say, “I mean, I could just go on and on about how this revelation was contrary to everything I saw in Christianity.”

The topic of creation and the condition or corruption of the earth is not central in the conflict between true and false Christianity.

You write, “Then I had my mom saying that perhaps it was Satan/Devil playing with me because God doesn't work today like in the bible.”

You’ve had an encounter with the prince of this world, but not because God works any differently today than He did in Bible times; it’s because He works the same way.

You say, “The two years and a half years have been full of doubt, fear, confusion, lot of crying, lot of repenting, lot of learning, taking one step forward, two steps back. Going thru periods of absolute thirst, followed by periods of no thirst, but mostly, having this walk be a lonely one.”

You say, “Again, the reason I need mature Christian to test the spirit of this dream, is because I was still getting high during this time I received this dream. So I have hated my sin even more because it gives me so much doubt now that I want to really know if it was of God. I have heard that a lot of ‘geniuses’ get knowledge or come up with the greatest invention or music when they are high on drugs. I get so fearful that that is what happened to me!”

One will know a major dream from God to be from Him. That one will know God has made Himself and His will known. You don’t know because it isn’t from God. Satan has appeared to you as a messenger of light:

“Did not even Satan marvelously transform himself into an angel of light? Therefore, it is no great thing if his ministers also transform themselves as ministers of righteousness, whose end shall be according to their works” (2 Corinthians 11:14-15 MKJV).

I’ve never encountered this peculiar kind of situation before that I can recall where one has experienced apparently good fruits, in our favor (agreement with our site), yet was subject to deception. Here’s my judgment of your dream, L:

You’ve received impressive, life-impacting, though not life-giving, knowledge and the Lord has used Satan to deliver it. It may be true information, but unless it is sanctified, unless YOU are sanctified with repentance and personal identification with the Lord, this knowledge will only serve to destroy you in the end, which would be Satan’s agenda.

I think your concept and definition of sin is flawed, but you’ll learn. I say you have nothing to fear provided you put your trust not in men, including us, or in your dream or revelations or those you saw in your dreams, but in the Lord Jesus Christ, Who Alone loved you and gave Himself to atone for your sins.

A question would be why you were made subject to this deception. The general answer is that you weren’t searching for God as He is but as you would like Him to be. You were after knowledge, not the knowledge of God but of knowledge in itself that you might satisfy curiosity, or even glorify, prosper and comfort yourself independently of God. You did say, “Before going to bed, I asked God to please show me who or what is the Holy Spirit.” Consider that He IS the Holy Spirit…yes, a Person.

Note, you didn’t ask God to reveal Himself to you and you weren’t crying in conviction of sin and its corruption for His Mind and forgiveness. So, God gave the enemy license to give you not what is true but what you were asking for. God has sent you strong delusion:

2 Thessalonians 2:7-12 MKJV
(7) For the mystery of lawlessness is already working, only he is now holding back until it comes out of the midst.
(8) And then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord shall consume with the breath of His mouth and shall destroy with the brightness of His coming,
(9) whose coming is according to the working of Satan with all power and signs and lying wonders,
(10) and with all deceit of unrighteousness in those who perish, because they did not receive the love of the truth, so that they might be saved.
(11) And for this cause God shall send them strong delusion, that they should believe a lie,
(12) so that all those who do not believe the truth, but delight in unrighteousness, might be condemned.

Our site has much knowledge and so in that respect, one might find it appealing even if not seeking after God. Many have found it so. But while knowledge is legitimate in itself, we present it as valid only for the purpose of cleansing and sanctification. Without faith and repentance, knowledge is not only useless, it is destructive. Eternal life isn’t at all about doctrine but about union in and harmony with Jesus Christ.

Of the time you were again “hit” in your bed, you say, “I began to cry and praise God saying ‘oh my God, I can't believe you answered me, oh my God, I can't believe this’.”

When anyone has an encounter with God, they don’t - can’t, say that.

ON THE OTHER HAND, L, you report some excellent fruits, as well:

“My life began to slowly turn around. I began to hate my sin, even while I was doing it. I stopped hanging out with people I would go out with and drink, get drunk and gossip/slander people. Although it took a while, my love for video games stopped and I began to hate it, and my smoking pot too. It was like, God had shown me so much, that I began to truly trust Him and love Him and He made my faith grow more with these revelations and I began to want/need Him more than I wanted my sin. When I stopped doing all these things, my sister and brother in law no longer come around. It began to change my dynamics with my husband since we were no longer in the same things. Although he lives the same lifestyle, as before, he was very supportive and has never prevented me from pursuing God and making changes. When I stopped smoking pot, he stopped too, since it was never handy anymore since I would be the one to buy it. He would be on one end of the room drinking, playing video games and I would be on the other, studying the word or hearing a sermon or studying about gardening, etc....”

Has God decided to show mercy? I believe so. What are we to make of these things? Who can argue with these fruits? Did you receive these things or have them strengthened and multiplied by the Truth at our site? Has God taken lemons and made lemon juice of them? Are you “a brand plucked from the fire,” and “saved so as by fire”?

You write, “It was a lot of correcting, and crying and feeling ‘I WILL NEVER GET THERE’. wherever ‘THERE’ is. God keeps pressing me to keep going, that there is more. But I don't know what the MORE is. I am thinking the baptism of the Holy Spirit or truly having Jesus manifest Himself and truly having a personal relationship.”

And: “I am still going thru repentance of my entire existence! That is the point I am now! I am seeing that my entire existence has been in rebellion. Even during my walk! (I will expand on this also in another email, because it is your website where the fullness of my rebellion was revealed!)”

L, I see the Lord at work with both good and evil to ultimately bring you to Him. Turn from knowing to knowing Him; from doing your will to doing His; from gathering knowledge to being filled with the knowledge of Him; from pleasing yourself to pleasing Him; from being empty to being satisfied in Him.

I’ve taken much time praying, cogitating and working to answer your request:

“Please correct/rebuke and instruct!”

Will my reply confuse or convict? Will it hinder or help? Will it do evil or good? You decide. God grant you deliverance and freedom in Him as He cleanses and heals you thoroughly.

Victor