Young in the Spirit, we attended a couple of meetings at Al and
Peggy Ryan’s home on Shellbrook Highway, west of Prince Albert.
They were rather charismatic in personality, leading in song and
praise, and they were big on Bob Mumford, the entertaining Charismatic
champion of the day, playing his video tapes for those interested.
Attending were several people from mainline denominations, such as
Lutherans, Catholics, United, and Anglicans. We weren’t comfortable
there, however. After a couple of meetings, we dropped out.
I was told that the Ryans once lived in Vancouver, where Al worked
in a ministry with drug addicts on the streets. Because Al received
threats on his life, Peggy wanted no more of it and urged him to
leave his work, which I was told they did.
I couldn’t understand that. If a man is called of God to work
somewhere, why would he abandon the work to the Devil, especially
if he had the power of the Spirit of God, which is what these Charismatic
meetings were supposed to be all about? Was his retreat an admission
of the powerlessness of God against Satan?
Had Al ever been called to ministry there in the first place? Or
had God, not his wife, led him out of there? Had God, in fact, abandoned
those slums to destruction after all? I wondered about such things.
What would the Lord be doing with us, and what should I expect of
Him and of myself?
Particle – Reverend
Roderick Riled
We decided to attend an Anglican Charismatic meeting led by a priest,
Henry Roderick. I don’t recall specifically what I said, something
about receiving the Spirit being the new birth, and suddenly he lost
it with me, exclaiming, “Are you saying I’m not born
again?!” He was very upset with me, in front of everyone. Others
tried to smooth things over with him.
I was taken aback, having said nothing of the sort… or, in
spirit and essence, had I? We didn’t return, and it wasn’t
long before others weren’t returning, either. Many mainline
denominations, particularly the Catholic, Anglican, Lutheran, and
United churches were trying their hand at being Charismatic, introducing
the “latest fad” into their churches, trying to “catch
the wave.” Fortunately for them and all, God doesn’t
work that way.
Why was “Father” Roderick upset? I’m not sure.
He obviously wasn’t born again or he wouldn’t have minded
too much being told he wasn’t, not that I was even telling
him so. Perhaps he thought he was born again simply because he was
a priest with a seminary education and ordination and that nobody
had the right to question his spiritual credentials. Perhaps he was
losing church members to the Charismatic movement and other churches
and was frustrated that he could do nothing to prevent his church’s
slow demise.
How good it is to realize that God is in full control and to be
able to agree with Him! How good it is to know we don’t have
to be God to serve Him! How good it is to be satisfied with His work
and judgment, not having to make things happen or try to be somebody
we’re not.
Particle – An
Enigmatic Charismatic
We were always on the watch for a spiritual leader we could follow
or at whose feet we could be taught. We heard tell of a Gordon Cole
in Charismatic circles, so we looked him up in Saskatoon. Gordon
turned out to be a young man, somewhat of a hippie, it seemed, who
had reportedly received the Spirit only recently, as with us. He
had a young fellow as an assistant. Gordon was affiliated with the
United Church and associated with the Charismatic movement.
When we met him, we didn’t know exactly what we were looking
for, but we didn’t find it. Gordon seemed to be into changing
or saving the world. We had no witness that he had even received
the Spirit, though it is possible that, in our spiritual youth, we
weren’t able to judge.
Gordon and his partner weren’t interested in receiving anything
from us, and they had nothing to give us. The visit was brief, and
dead. He expressed “Christian” goodwill, with trite sayings
like, “God bless,” but the substance wasn’t there.
We were looking in vain for a man of God to guide us, and we would
never find one, despite the thousands out there who presumed, or
were presumed, to be just that.
Particle – “Bloom Where You’re Planted”?
The motto of the Charismatics, we would hear again and again, was, “Bloom
where you’re planted.” The suggestion was that if you
received the Spirit while a Catholic, you should remain in the Catholic
Church; if while a Lutheran or United or Anglican, remain there.
But where was I planted? I was physically born in the Roman Catholic
Church. My employer’s serviceman converted me to Christ and
led me to the Alliance Church. From there, I went to a Baptist Bible
school, where Marilyn and I met, married, and were baptized in the
Holy Spirit, with no credit to the Baptists. The man who left the
booklet at our place was a Mennonite, and I don’t know what
religious affiliation R. A. Torrey had, who wrote the booklet, except
that he was associated with D. L. Moody. Where should I be blooming,
especially when none of the physical groups I was with accepted the
changes God had wrought in our lives?
God says, “Come out,” but Satan says, “Stay in!”
“Bloom where you’re planted,” has no validity;
it is a self-serving statement, and anti-Christ. It is just another
device of men to retain their memberships.
Particle – Charismatic
Counterfeit
We soon learned that the Charismatic movement, within denominational
circles, was a counterfeit of the true work of the Holy Spirit. We
learned that the true work of Christ was manifest when those persons
called and receiving His Spirit were led into truth. They were then
willing, indeed compelled, to come out of their home church systems
and their darkened ways.
We simply didn’t believe that those who continued in false
church doctrines and practices had experienced anything genuine from
God. The Spirit leads into all truth, Jesus said. He therefore leads
out of all error.
Particle – To
Minister or Be Ministered To
In 1975, we met Gordon and Mary Campbell at a Charismatic prayer
and fellowship meeting in someone’s home in Prince Albert.
They were members of the Lutheran Church. Gord was a former RCMP
officer. They were building a home in the country, with an aspiration
to help troubled boys, something along the lines of a boys’ ranch
ministry.
One cold wintry night while driving out to their place on slippery
roads, we slid into the ditch and all four tires deflated. Gord took
them to a tire shop, had them repaired, and paid the bill. I asked, “What
do I owe you?”
“Oh, don’t worry about it. I’ll get it from you,” he
playfully replied. It sounded ominous, but I accepted and thanked
him for the gift.
The Campbells had two or three dogs, and they weren’t being
fed, to put it mildly – they were basically left to fend for
themselves. They were scrawny and sluggish, their ribs protruding.
One day, I decided to pick up some meat scraps for them. When we
and the Campbells returned from town, I proceeded to feed the dogs
by holding out the meat. I quickly found I had to back off and keep
a safe distance away while tossing them the scraps. The scene was
almost scary; they ravenously devoured them.
I was dismayed. “Why don’t you feed your dogs? Look
at them! They’re starving!” I exclaimed, with as much
composure as I could try to muster, given the terrible spectacle
before us.
Gord and Mary seemed somewhat alerted to something they hadn’t
noticed or paid mind to till then, and seemed a bit sheepish. It
was as if their mentality was, “Dogs? Who cares for dogs?” I
hoped that from then on, they would provide food for their dogs.
I thought, “How can they be Christians and treat their animals
that way?” A Scripture came to mind:
“A
righteous one understands the soul of his animal; but the tender
mercies of the wicked are cruel” (Proverbs 12:10 MKJV).
Particle – Another
Sign of Approaching Conflict
The time came for Gord to ask us to return the favor he had done
for us. They were going to be away for a few days and their home
and resident boys needed “babysitting.” They asked if
we would do it for them, and we consented.
Whether it was at this time or another, I don’t recall, but
while staying at Campbells’ one night and fast asleep, we were
suddenly awakened by loud and angry shouting. Some of the resident
boys had “borrowed” one of the Campbell vehicles and
went for a “joy ride” in the night. Gord had the RCMP
search for them, and when they were found and returned, Gord flew
into a rage, cursing and shouting things like, “Is this the
thanks I get for all we do for you?!”
I didn’t expect his “boys’ ranch ministry” to
last long. We think of doing great things, only to discover that
great things must happen to us first, like having our true natures
exposed and changed.
Particle – A
Pit of Serpents
Gord and Mary held weekly Charismatic meetings in their new country
home. Almost all those attending were Lutherans, dabbling in the
alleged gifts of the Spirit and exploring potential freedom from
the starchy, formal religion to which they were subjected in their
church.
Glen and Bea Bradford came to the meetings for a while, until Glen
had a vision or dream, in which they were sinking a sand point for
water at Campbells’. The well was filled with snakes. The Bradfords
interpreted the well of snakes to represent their meetings and concluded
they should cease participating, which they did.
As I look back, had we heeded the warning (I believe the vision/dream
was of God) and left with the Bradfords, we would have been spared
some conflict, pain, and sorrow soon to come. But we remained; I
needed it, having much to learn, and more needed to happen there.
Particle – What
is the New Birth?
One of the deeper discussions Glen and I had was about the doctrine
of the new birth. In experiencing repentance, over two years earlier,
I was taught that I had been born again, but now I was having a struggle
with the doctrine: How is it that one can be born of the Spirit and
still need the Spirit to come upon him?
I prayed, asking the Lord to explain to me what had happened to
me. I then had a vision. I saw a man lying on the ground, dead or
unconscious. Suddenly, I saw him sit up. Then he was enveloped or
immersed from above by the Spirit of Life. The first event, repentance,
was an awakening, a coming to life or consciousness, and the second
was the new birth.
I had not been born again at repentance, as so many others and I
had been taught. The baptism in the Holy Spirit was, and is, the
new birth. This new birth is what Paul refers to in this passage:
“For also by one Spirit we are all baptized into one body,
whether Jews or Greeks, whether bond or free, even all were made
to drink into one Spirit” (1 Corinthians 12:13 MKJV).
When I shared this revelation with Glen, he was very excited at
first. We enjoyed many truths in the Spirit together. Alas, he wouldn’t
remain that way for long. He and his wife had a problem with much
of what the Lord was teaching us, especially with the fact that He
was withdrawing us from church attendance, as if we were turning
our backs on Him. Actually, He was turning His back toward us and
we were called to follow Him!
Particle – “Come
Out and I Will Be Your Father”
Bea Bradford once tried to tell me that by remaining within the
church, they could bear witness of the Spirit to those who had not
received. That was one of the first of many times we would hear that
lie from those unwilling to take up the cross and follow the Lord “without
the gate” (Hebrews 13:12-13).
The Spirit’s purpose and work is to bear witness of Jesus
Christ. It is not our job as believers to bear witness of the Spirit.
As I observed the Bradfords over time, I saw them growing cold (not
to us only, but also to the things of God) and dying.
“Guess what?” Bea once said, months after we had come
out. “Things are happening! Pastor Regier mentioned the Spirit
last Sunday in his sermon!” As if this moldy crumb justified
their refusal of a wedding feast fit for kings!
God says:
“Come out from among them and be separate, and
do not touch the unclean thing, and I will be a Father to you and
you shall be
My sons and daughters” (2 Corinthians 6:17-18).
But those who choose to ignore God’s call, quote Him as saying, “Stay
among them, and mix with the unclean thing, and by you, I will be
a Father to them and they will be My sons and daughters.”
God wants obedience, not accommodation, sacrifice, or substitute
works. Furthermore, He is not in the business of saving anybody and
everybody. His purpose is to save certain souls in this age, not
all.
Satan is in the business of salvation as well, but salvation of
the flesh. To receive his salvation, people can do as they please,
staying in the system God abhors. Glen and Bea and their families,
the Bradfords and the Hills, were locked in the system and unwilling
to separate themselves. Come time, they would pay the sad price.
Particle – Christian
Bookstores Not Christian
As I said, Glen and Bea Bradford owned The Way, a Bible and Christian
bookstore. As we continued in our walk with the Lord, I began to
realize that almost everything published and sold in such stores
is not pleasing or acceptable to the Lord. Christian books, so called,
are full of error and contradiction.
The Bradfords couldn’t accept what we were learning. Their
reaction was that they would have nothing left to sell if they were
to see things as we were seeing them. Bingo! They weren’t prepared
to lose their investment in this world for the sake of treasure in
the next. They despised the very cross they made a show of acknowledging
and selling to others.
Particle – Tried,
Tired, and Torn by the True
I was rather consumed for a time, trying to doctrinally understand
the new birth. I talked and talked about it, until Glen could no
longer handle it. He felt I was getting unduly preoccupied with nonessentials.
At the time, I thought he might be right. As I look back now, I realize
God was establishing knowledge and understanding in me concerning
the nature of our birth and relationship and duty to Him, which understanding
would serve us well in the days and years to come.
Particle – The
Dead Dump the Devoted
One day in the fall of ‘75, after returning to the Homes
Canada office from a trip, Glen was very cool toward me. He and
his wife avoided us like the plague thereafter. We sought to know
the reason why, but they wouldn’t tell us. It hurt very much
to be shunned by someone I was fond of, without explanation or
consideration of any kind. It is times like these that are harder
than anything else I know of in the Christian walk.
I always believed that Bea was preserving her nest, and Glen followed
her, as is so often the case with husbands and wives. It was the
repetitive manifestation of the “original sin” (read
The Man-Woman Dynamic). We guessed that they couldn’t accept
the conflict between those in the Alliance church and me because
of my questioning, learning, probing, and criticizing.
Particle – The
Hlewka Triumph
Now comes one of the more joyous events of our lives, but which
turned out to be one of the saddest. First, the very good news, and
later the very bad.
We shared with Walter and Adeline Hlewka, from the Alliance Church,
about receiving the Spirit at their home one evening. Walter was
sorely plagued by depression and a constant compulsion toward suicide.
He confessed that one day he would have taken a gun to his head in
the basement, but the thought of his family finding him with his
brains splattered all over the cement wall prevented him.
He and his wife had back problems, as well – neither of them
could bend over to touch their toes. Their children were allergic
to milk, reacting dramatically at the mere taste.
Particle – Delivered
of a Demon of Suicide
While confessing sins to prepare for receiving the Spirit, Walter
had to openly confess adultery, with his wife present. Having done
so, he was free to receive, but first a spirit of suicide was rebuked.
Immediately, he exclaimed, “This dark, heavy cloud I’ve
had as long as I can remember just lifted off me! It’s gone!
I’m free! It’s not there anymore!”
He was overjoyed. The Spirit of the Lord came on him, and he was
excited. Adeline was prayed for as well, but it wasn’t apparent
that she received the Spirit.
Particle – Miraculous
Healings for the Family
Upon our praying for healing, both Walter and Adeline declared that
their backs were healed. With ease and childlike excitement, Walter
was able to touch the floor repeatedly, keeping his knees straight,
something he said he hadn’t been able to do for a long time,
if ever. Adeline revealed that since her pregnancy, she also had
back problems and couldn’t lie on her stomach. Suddenly, she
had no problem doing so.
We prayed for their children. I told Walter and Adeline to give
their three or four year old twin boys a glass of milk each. They
took the milk and drank it, without the slightest symptom. The parents
were amazed and praised God for these wonderful miracles of deliverance
and healing.
Who says there is no God, or that the gift
of healing isn’t
for today?
This was the first manifestation by us of the Lord’s gift
of healing.
An important note on drinking milk: Many who have problems with
it are considered to be lactose intolerant; however, the problem
is often not with the person but with the milk because of pasteurization
and homogenization, which are both detrimental. The Lord healed these
children despite the processing of milk, but I wouldn’t recommend
drinking conventional milk. If you can, get raw milk or at least
low-temperature pasteurized organic milk without homogenization,
or do without dairy milk altogether. Pasteurization and homogenization
render milk poisonous. (And if you avoid dairy milk, don’t
resort to soy milk, which has major problems of its own.)
Particle – Religion
versus Redemption
Days later, on Sunday, in the foyer of the Alliance Church, someone
greeted Wally with the usual, “Good morning! How are you?” From
a normally quiet, subdued person, they received a sudden burst of
energy, a most unexpected and joyous, “Heaven came down and
glory filled my soul! Praise the Lord!” Wally said he felt
like he was four feet off the ground.
Were people excited to see joy suddenly replace his depression,
and victory his defeat? They certainly were, but not for the right
reasons. They were dismayed, even afraid. When he told them what
happened, they immediately opposed him, condemning it as “Pentecostalism” and
of the Devil.
I was surprised. “Who,” I thought, “could possibly
rationally argue with the results – the joy of the Lord?” But
I was beginning to learn that it had nothing to do with rationality;
it was far deeper than that. It was spiritual warfare. My learning
was about to take me into deep waters, indeed.
Particle – Walter
Testifies
I asked Wally to come to the Campbell meetings and tell them what
had happened to him. He came out and gave a charged testimony. There
was no doubt in anyone’s mind that something special had happened
to Wally, whether or not they had known him before he received the
Spirit. Others were deeply moved and wanted what he had.
Particle – Pat
Pellerin
There was a lady at the Campbell meetings who had heard us sharing.
Pat Pellerin sought us out and asked to receive. She declared she
wanted God’s will, she confessed sins, and we prayed for her
to receive the Spirit. In days to come, she was water baptized (immersed)
at the river. We didn’t see her again, however.
Particle – Destructive
Pleasure before God
We were ever eager to see others receive the Spirit. Gord and Mary
were two of those people. In sharing with them one evening, Marilyn,
Mary, Gord, and I knelt down to pray. We began to pray through the
conditions for receiving the Spirit, which R. A. Torrey had outlined
in his booklet, “The Baptism in the Holy Spirit” (the
wording of which has been changed, unfortunately, in more recent
publishings).
When it came to the part of addressing inordinate affection for
anything, (idolatry, that is), the Holy Spirit pointed to Gord’s
smoking. At first, I thought he was addicted and therefore found
it difficult to give up, but it was more than that. Gord wasn’t
at all willing to give up smoking, even if the Lord was willing to
take the craving away from him, and I was surprised. He didn’t
argue that smoking was good, but he saw nothing wrong with retaining
his pleasure.
Knowing that he couldn’t receive the Spirit when clinging
to another god, we left it, telling him we could go no further. He
was visibly displeased, but it wasn’t until the next meeting,
a week or two later, that we experienced the full impact of his feelings.
Particle – Smoking
Not Necessarily an Issue
There are those who will condemn or criticize professing believers
for smoking. Wally was a smoker, about a pack a day or more. While
he wished to quit, and we would have wanted the same, the Lord didn’t
indicate it was an issue with him, as He had with Gord. We knew that
if Wally continued in faith and obedience, his problem would be addressed,
and he would be free in God’s time and way.
Particle – “You
Cannot Serve God and Mammon”
Gord and Mary had a son, Dean, a quiet teenager, who took a liking
to me as I shared about the Lord with him. I later sold him my stereo
set, for which he gave me only a partial payment, saying he didn’t
have the money. I let him owe me, but soon found him making another
cash purchase on something unnecessary. He never did pay the balance,
which was about half the total.
It bothered me. What bothered me was the quandary I was in, trying
to do what I thought was the “Christian” thing to do,
to not let money matters rule me, to forgive the debt and go on,
but I was bothered about being taken advantage of or abused.
I wrote Dean a year later, trying to be “Christian,” yet
trying to collect, while trying to be spiritually encouraging. It
didn’t work, and I didn’t hear back from him. However,
I learned a lesson: Let them commit themselves to you before you
commit yourself to them:
“And as He was in Jerusalem, at the Passover, at the Feast,
many believed into His name, seeing the miracles which He did. But
Jesus Himself did not commit Himself to them, because He knew all,
and because He had no need that anyone should witness concerning
man, for He knew what was in man” (John 2:23-25 LITV).
That lesson would serve us in good stead, but only
if we heeded it, which often wasn’t the case.
Particle – Religion,
a Battlefield Laden with Mines
In sharing Scripture at the Campbells’ weekly meetings, some
of the people became quite upset, particularly two women whose doctrines
and ideas were contrary to Scripture.
One of the women arranged for their Lutheran pastor to come and
deal with me. She pressed me with questions in his presence, hoping
I would reply. Rightly or wrongly I avoided conflict, replying circumspectly.
Everyone there was relieved; one woman even shared her thankfulness
with me that no conflict resulted. The women who had hoped I would
be corrected, as they saw fit, weren’t satisfied.
Particle – Beauty
of Virtue Skin-Deep
It is amazing how those who profess to believe in, and worship,
the Lord Jesus Christ, and who sing and praise as though they are
the very angels of Heaven, can turn so ugly on a dime, with so little
provocation, particularly when the Truth is spoken to them.
Particle – Explosion
at Campbells’
There came a time at Campbells’ when I brought up topics and
Scriptures that enraged the whole group. I spoke of how one wasn’t
saved until receiving the Spirit, that repentance wasn’t enough.
Gord took advantage of the situation and bellowed and raged at me,
along with several others. “You’re judging! You’re
judging!” they angrily shouted.
I was devastated, while he and apparently his wife, Mary, and some
of their friends were quite pleased with themselves. He was very
offended that I had said he wouldn’t be receiving the Spirit
when he treasured his cigarettes above God.
We returned one more evening, but things weren’t the same.
I was subdued, they were unrepentant, and we parted ways.